LACK OF PERCEIVED SELF-WORTH
Self-absorption & taking from the field
Not valuing ourselves is a rather common disposition among humans. It tends to be more socially acceptable to share feelings of lack of self-worth than it is to share expressions of worthiness. If someone is confident they are often viewed as arrogant or conceded, and if someone lacks self-worth they are viewed as altruistic or humble. Due to this social conditioning many who are confident don’t share themselves fully for concern of not wanting to “make” others feel bad about themselves or appear non-caring or un-empathetic. Meanwhile those that don’t value themselves set the social bar for the level of self-love that it’s ok to share and express.
Not valuing one’s self is the lowest energy state. It literally takes energy from everything that it interacts with because it never feels like it’s enough. Not only does it perceive itself as not enough, but it views everything else from the same lens that it views itself. It can’t not. It does not give to the field, but rather takes from it. It is the most self-absorbed state. Some people may find this paradoxical because what is perceived as confident or arrogant is most commonly associated with self-absorption. However this is opposite to the energetic dynamics that get played out.
Understand that to not care for yourself or see value in who/what you are is not humble or altruistic. You viewing yourself as less than does not make you more kind, loving or selfless. Rather it makes you more selfish and more wrapped up in your own self-created delusion of inadequacy and lack. This sucks the life out of you, and out of everything and everyone around you. Lack of self-worth is like a black hole that absorbs all the light of the world into it and yet remains empty because there isn’t enough light in the entire universe to illuminate it.
The only thing that can shift this is if that which views itself changes its perspective of itself, meaning you change your perception of yourself. If rather than seeing yourself as lack and valueless, you see yourself as you truly are, which is abundant, complete and full. If that simple perception shift occurs, than no longer does one need to get from its environment or from other people in order to attempt to fill itself up. Only then will you stop sucking energy out of the field and become a radiating stream that gives to the field by its very beingness. Rather than being self-absorbing you become self-emitting, shining light wherever you go. Many desire this, to be a light, and yet simultaneously don’t understand that their perception of themselves and their worth influences all of the energetic dynamics about them.
FUELING YOUR BELIEF IN SELF
Prisoned disempowerment or free will
The larger truth is that its impossible to not be worthy. You can only perceive yourself to be unworthy, and that perception creates the reality you experience, whether it’s true or not. The only questions become, how do you want to participate with/play the game of life, and will you wake up to your choice? See nothing in life happens to you unless you view it as such; unless you choose the victim position. Most people unconsciously choose the victim position because the sea our consciousness swims in is filled with that programming. The whole process and point of waking up is to consciously recognize that you are choosing and also then what you are choosing. In this way you can consciously create your world rather than blindly accept the status quo. Just because the large majority of people choose prisoned disempowerment as their story doesn’t mean that you must as well.
The fuel of the reality of prisoned disempowerment is re-enforcing the belief of non-worth, non-value, and powerlessness. In this reality some people have power and some don’t. Some people matter and some don’t. Some people are valuable and some aren’t. You must ask yourself if that is the reality that you want to fuel, and also be willing to see how you do fuel it though the “innocent” interaction you have with how you see yourself as unworthy. If you desire to create a different reality you will require a different fuel source. The reality of free will is fueled by the belief of infinite value, inherent worth and powerfulness. What is required for you to experience free will is the knowing of your worth. Your power is your worth, your worth is your power. In this reality all have power, all matter and all are valuable.
Its important to know what reality your energetic vote and perception of self, contribute to creating. People tend not to know the power of their inner dialogue and the power of the lenses that they wear when they look at self or at the world. How you view becomes your reality. Even though your power could never be more or less than it is, which is synonymous with saying that your worth could never be more or less than it is, in this relative game we are playing there are two ways to increase power/worth/energy. One way is to control others; the other way is to empower others. If you control others you then gain/take their free will and it adds to your own. You gain power. If you empower others you give free will and it adds to the greater collective all of which you are included. This is essentially your “how to” recipe: view yourself as valuable, help others view themselves as such through your capacity to view yourself as such, create a lived reality where free will is your direct experience.
Understand that to view yourself as unworthy or not valuable is to disregard the beauty of God and it’s creation. It’s to deny the perfection of the creator expressed through you. It’s paradoxically the most self-absorbed perspective through its rejection of self. Its the lowest energy state, which you then experience as your life. Through viewing yourself as unworthy you create a disempowered reality and willingly give your free will, your energy and your power over to it. When will you have had enough? When will you decide you are more then you’ve been perceiving yourself to be? What will it take for you to stop insisting that you aren’t worthy? How much more suffering are you willing to create by holding onto your view of unworthiness?
Dr. Amanda Love, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado