Sanctuary for Heart Magic :Unwinding Spines & Unleashing Hearts utilizing Network Spinal Chiropractic in Boulder, Colorado: ego death

HEART MAGIC

Dying to the self

There is no doubt, the energy of the heart is magic. Those who have tasted, felt or touched their heart know its power, its bliss and its vastness. It is the most advanced intelligence, and I would even say technology or tool, that we have access to inside of this human experience. When we find our heart we realize that everything that our mind or body has created or tries to create, pales in comparison to what and how the heart creates. Resting into the heart reveals a way of being, seeing and relating that includes everything and everyone inside of it. Nothing is left out and everything is loved. With this knowingness everything is possible.

If the heart is so powerful how come more of us don’t access and use it? Well my friends that is a good question. Why don’t we? The easiest answer I can give is because it means death of our ego. This means death of thinking that our minds know best, death of what we think we want, death of our life lived for own pleasures and preferences. Death, death, death. My friends we don’t like death. In fact as a society we pretend that death doesn’t exist. If we do acknowledge its existence our perspective of it is grim, depressing and full of sadness. Something that is so obvious and undeniably evident and yet we deny it, try to postpone it, hold on for dear life, that is until we simply can’t anymore. If we learned to allow things to die, if we gave everything it’s rights back to it’s natural course, including our wants, desires, dreams, ideas, perspectives, and so on, we would more easily find our heart. We would naturally find ourselves open to whatever is and in the field of infinite possibilities rather than finite completion. We would instantly reconnect to the magic.

Why death you ask? It is death of the individualistic, of the egocentric, of the self-centric focus, of which none of us escape. We are born innocent, without a self and in connection with our essence. Then we develop an ego in order to survive our world. The more our personality and identity develops the more we forget our original self. It is the natural course of human development. Without our ego mind we would have a very hard time adapting to or being part of this world. But the journey doesn’t stop there. There is development of our being which is beyond the mind, it’s simply that we have to give the reigns over and let something else be in charge. From the perspective of our human identity this feels like death. To our soul however it feels like coming home. It is a birth, yet to our mind’s ideas about what life is or should be, it feels like misery. We can either involuntarily collapse into suffering and feel victimized by the happenings of life, or we can voluntarily die to our stories, ideas, hopes and dreams and open into a world of wonder beyond where our mind’s imaginations lie.

WORLD OF WONDER

Voluntary relinquishment

The voluntary choice to relinquish ourselves is what is called surrender. People like to think that surrender is easy and they use the term casually, but to truly surrender means that you will likely feel the pain of death. It means you are willingly opening into that pain which you’ve done your ultimate best to avoid acknowledging or feeling, and you are choosing to let die that which is ready to die.

So you’ve gone through the death portal, now what? Now you are open, available and you just are. Your heart is free. You are at peace. You’ve let the resentments, angers, insistences, pushes and pulls all go. You are simply available for exactly what is in front of you. You are no longer wishing that something else was. The longing for something different dies and you arrive into the present moment of what is here now. You feel humble and available. You don’t know any grand knowledge. You’ve just let the things go. They’re gone. Now life can move through you unimpeded. This is the beginning of the field of heart magic and the world of wonder and awe.

The more times you go through the death portal, the more you rest into this field. As you let things be as they are, more and more this field of wonder opens up to you. You might not be overtly aware of it at first. It may be more subtle and just beyond your ordinary resting awareness. You might notice an increase in synchronicities or being more telepathic, such as knowing when someone is going to call you or manifesting the best parking spot. You might feel less tense. Your breath might be easier and you feel less agitated or anxious in a general sense. Things seem to take a bit less effort and you feel less depleted. As you rest more and more into the field of the heart its presence is more obvious to you, and you begin to see and know the interconnectedness and inseparability of everything. More and more you see everything as one all pervasive, intelligent and sovereign love.

The field of heart magic is a collective or unified field. When you are rested in the heart, then other hearts will feel this and respond to it. They might not even know why they respond, they just do because all are connected at this level of the field. Even if people knowingly or unknowingly respond to it, they may still have doubts, insecurities, feel separate, and choose their mind’s ideas over this all loving love. Again giving up on our picture of life does not come easy. We typically need to experience some life disruption, pain or suffering to get us to even entertain surrender. If our life is too easy or comfortable there is nothing to push us into the next stage of development. We need some kind of catalyst. All of the catalyst you experience, the disruption, the pain, the suffering, the confusion is all to get you to your edge, to where you will willingly surrender, so that you can find your way into the heart. Next time you are experiencing some kind of distress, something that you don’t want to be feeling or experiencing, remember this is exactly what you need in order to help you open into the field of heart magic. Rather than turning away, face forward and move into whatever is presenting itself to you. Even if it doesn’t feel like it, it is a gift. Given to you by you, to help you remember your very nature, your most essential self, and your complete heart.

Dr. Amanda Love, Network Spinal Chiropractor, Boulder, Colorado

WHAT DO YOU SERVE?

Living devoted

So much of our lives we live on automatic pilot. We go through the motions of our days without much thought as to why we are doing what we are doing. We simply do the things we think we need to do in order to make life happen. By the end of our day we only hope that we got everything done just to wake up and do it all over again. In this way we aren’t living intentionally, but rather only to survive. While this is valid, it doesn’t do much for us in terms of feeling soulfully aligned, fulfilled and like we are completing the mission for our existence. Instead we feel like we are on a treadmill that we can’t get off of because the stuff of life doesn’t stop happening. Eventually we get tired, then exhausted, yet we continue to focus on the stuff of life rather than on why we even exist in the first place.

What we serve is what we focus our time, energy and attention on. Most of us have aspirations to serve something great. Examples of something great would be serving love, joy, freedom, truth, peace, or unity. While many of us might have the aim to serve these things, what most of us end up of serving is our to do list, our emotional states, our frustrations, our limitations, our judgments, our preferences, and our pleasures or comforts. We make these things primary in our life rather than what it is we say or think we desire to make primary or serve. For example say we feel frustrated about something. We tend to focus our energy on the state of being frustrated and what we are frustrated about, rather than on being or feeling peace, which is what we might ideally like to think that we serve. Or say we have 30 things on our to do list for the day and feel overwhelmed. We then keep our feelings of overwhelm in the forefront, rather than focusing on joy. One more example is that we might lose ourselves inside of pleasurable sensations or comfort that may actually be limiting, rather than conjuring up the energy to focus on freedom.

In order to live intentionally devoted to what it is you consciously want to serve requires that you give away your own personal life with all of your preferences and the ways you think/want life to be. 99%, or maybe even 100% of our frustrations have to do with life not looking, feeling or being the way we want it to look, feel or be. However if it is no longer about us, but only about what we serve, it cuts out all the b.s. and confusion. Life becomes very uncomplicated when it is no longer about all of your personal preferences and desires being met, but rather it’s about the reason why you exist, which for most people is lives along the lines of serving love, joy, freedom, truth, peace, or unity, and helping others know or experience this too.

GIVING AWAY YOUR SELF

Moving beyond self-indulgence

In order to move beyond our constant self-indulgence in our own preferences, needs, wants, desires, emotional states and thoughts, something has to be even more important than us. This isn’t to dismiss our own inherent value or worth, but rather to make it not so important. There is a development move, stage or step so to speak, from making your self value important, to simply accepting it and understanding that it is. See the paradox is that when we understand, know and accept our own inherent value or worth, all of our own “stuff” doesn’t really take up space inside of us anymore. We don’t need to focus on ourselves. This frees up our internal space to align with our mission, why we exist, and serving that which we desire to serve rather than our own little personal world stuff.

Some people might call this ego death, but it really isn’t as dramatic as spiritual people tend to make it out to be. It’s just a shift in focus. That focus is from your personal life and all of its details and perceived demands being central, to making what you serve to be central. It’s also easy to know your purpose, mission or what you really want to serve. It’s not something that you do or even what you are doing now, but rather it’s what you want people to get by your existence. It’s what you would want everyone in the world to know if you died tomorrow. You can ask yourself the question, “If I died tomorrow what would I want every child, woman, man, animal, etc. to know, experience or feel?” What imprint, information or feeling do you want every person that you interact with to get from you? What quality or energetic vibration do you desire that everything in creation experiences? What kind of world do you want to live in? You must be what you want yourself and others to experience.

In giving away yourself you might be a little cranky and put up a bit of fight. You might feel sad or like a death of sorts, as the focus on your personal dreams perishes. However you will open into something more magnificent that it will be easy to forget your crankiness. Be clear though that what you open up into is not finally getting what you want, which is often what people think is the spiritual reward for surrendering the self. Rather you open into the larger mission of which you are a part of and for which there is so much more support for, than whatever it is you are trying to do on your own, but again it’s not about you. One more time be clear this is not a recipe for things happening how you prefer them to happen. There will still be hard work and showing up, probably way more than you currently do. It also doesn’t mean that your body changes, sensations go away, or that situations or people in your life change. Those things might happen, but this isn’t about them happening. It’s only about you aligning with why you exist and opening yourself to serve that. While you still may not have what you want, living aligned and serving what you desire to serve is actually a 1000 times more rewarding than serving yourself, and a bit relieving because it’s finally not about you.

There is a choice to make and it’s one that you must consciously choose, and continue to choose over and over again until you’ve got it. That choice is what you serve. This is what you focus on, what you tune your self to, what you put in the forefront over anything that appears in your experience. That choice creates a developmental shift from what we might call a pseudo self-empowerment into the dissolution of self, and thus self-importance. Said another way it’s simply growing up. While it’s an important development step to become a self, it’s also important to realize that you’re not.

Dr. Amanda Love, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado