LETTING YOUR SOUL BE SEEN
Finding your heart
Whether you know it or not, you are an expression of light. The light is the one infinite source of all of life. Everything that is created comes from this source. The light is clear, pure, aware, intelligent, and it just is. Pure being. Endlessly radiating. You can’t not be this even if you try hard not be it, deny it or don’t know it. Regardless, your fundamental essence is a spark of the brightest light you could ever imagine. That spark is called the Soul. Other terms that could be used to describe it are your Higher Self, the Heart, or Love. That spark of purity and innocence can be most easily seen and felt in babies the first few months after they are born. They do not have the filters, dampeners or defenses in place yet that distort the light. The light and love they emit is clearly evident and transmitted. They are not attempting to hide, dim or deny anything.
As we develop our body and mind, and begin to have experiences, we start to bend the light that we are. This doesn’t make us any less the light, but rather only adds twists, turns, and rotations to the light’s expression as it moves through the vehicles of our body and mind. Some of these twists and turns distort or block our knowingness or remembrance of the spark of light that we are. This means that we forget that we are a Soul, but again and of prime importance, our forgetting of what we are doesn’t make us any less it. We are still a Soul. That never changes. Our light, our presence is never touched by our forgetting of it.
Also just because you forget something or it’s blocked from your view, doesn’t mean that you can’t remember it or discover where it’s been hiding out. Just like you can forget where you put your keys and then you can find them, it’s the same for your Soul. It may take some work to untwist and detangle some of the stuff so that you can begin to see your pure essence, hence the need for inner work of increasing one’s awareness of self. You typically don’t find your keys unless you look for them. The best is when you’ve been looking for them and all the while you were holding onto them in your hand. This is what it is like to re-discover your Soul. You seek to find it and then realize it’s been with you all along. Still we must do the seeking in order to uncover and realize what is already here.
UNWINDING THE TWISTS & TURNS
Doing the inner work
The distortions of light develop in response to a perceived need to protect ourselves from hurt or harm. When we perceive threat, we twist or turn in order to move away from or not feel physical, emotional or mental pain. While these twists and turns dampen our experience of suffering, they also dampen our experience of being the source of light that we are. We lose sight of our Soul. Hence the massive amount of spiritual disconnection most of us feel. This process occurs mostly unconsciously. If we were self-aware, we would turn towards the experience, feel the impact, allow the sensations, feelings and thoughts to move through us, open our heart to the source of pain, love it and remain connected to our Soul. If you are avoiding feeling the feels of life and protecting your heart, you can’t love with it. Love is the portal into Soul. This is the path of healing and what you learn to do as you spiritually wake up.
So while our self-protective defenses serve an important function of personal and social survival, they distort our experience of the light. Our defenses are intelligent and the moment they perceive threat they will activate. You could also exchange the word threat with the word stress. When you feel stress, something feels scarce or threatened, even if you aren’t aware of what feels scarce and threatened. You might not even associate the words stress or overwhelm with feeling threat. This is why it’s so important to do your inner work. Through inner work you wake up your own awareness to yourself. You bring the light back. You begin to see your defenses, why they get activated and what is underneath them. As soon as you see through them they unwind. The bends unbind and you open into your Soul. The light is clearer and you can see yourself again.
Once we begin to open into our Soul we typically feel lighter, freer and more expansive. However we can have all kinds of stories and beliefs as to why it is not safe to allow others to see our Soul or why it’s not safe to fully express ourselves. Our defenses can arise just that quickly again. We fear judgment from others or that we are unworthy of being the light that we are. We are afraid people will reject or feel bad around us if we express and allow the light that we are to be seen. We might feel some shame for feeling bliss or ecstasy, or feel too big and bright. We fear people’s confusion as to why we are the way we are and what we are experiencing and expressing. We jump into the practicalities of life and prioritize them rather than valuing the expression of our Soul. We grasp back onto our stressors and irritations, wanting to hold onto them rather than dissolve into our Soul where they are all resolved.
It is vulnerable to let our Soul, Heart and true Self be seen. However the more inner work you do to increase your awareness of your patterns the less you will perceive threat, and the less vulnerable it will feel to express the light of your Soul. It will just be you, being you, heart wide open, undefended, feeling the feels of life, allowing what is to be and loving it all exactly as it is.
Do the work to remember the spark that you are and then let it be seen.
Dr. Amanda Love, Network Spinal Analysis Chiropractic, Boulder, Colorado