The physiology of self-hatred

The physiology of self-hatred 

Inner messages that are not so quiet

16907643 - generations men, all age categories, stages of developmentTake a moment to reflect on yourself.  See yourself as a baby, as a toddler, a child, a teen, a young adult, middle aged and the version of you that is here now.  As you see yourself at various ages and stages also notice how you feel about yourself at those different ages.  Perhaps seeing yourself as a baby invokes a tenderness towards yourself and seeing yourself as a teenager invokes slight repulsion.  Or maybe seeing yourself as a child brings sadness and seeing yourself as a young adult brings joy.  As you do this simply notice those versions of yourself that are easy to accept and like and also notice those versions of yourself that you resist or slightly push away.

There are ever so slight ways that we do not accept ourselves and being able to track where this lives in us is pivotal for moving into greater love for self and all.  Many of us don’t necessarily enjoy or seek out those places or parts of self that we don’t like, feel repulsed by or down right hate.  Because we often don’t look for or at these parts they show up in our life as judgment of others, aloofness or resistance to what is, and appear to have no connection to our relationship towards ourself but instead as something “external” to us in our environment.  

These inner subtle resistances, repulsions, and non-invitations of self are not so quiet.  Though it seems that if we don’t see them or look at them somehow they don’t exist, this is not the case.  They do exist and with their existences they influence not only our psyche but also create a body physiology of their own.  This physiology is one in which the human organism instead of functioning as a coherent whole, like the way a symphony sounds when all the sounds blend in perfect harmony, functions as parts that are not in communication with all the other parts.  These parts act as independent or separate units that are cut off from the whole of which they are a part of.  In fact they don’t even really know that they are part of something larger because they’ve been isolated for so long.  They have lost their connection to the larger organizing principle of the organism and thus must navigate with only their own limited resources.   

Creating coherence

Communication is the cornerstone

I relate the physiology of self-hatred to the feeling of navigating a room in your house in the dark while simultaneously every other room in your house is lit up, yet you can’t tell because you are in the dark room and it seems from where you are at that that is all that there is.  My educated and intuitive guess is that this is what disease is.  A part that is operating in the dark, disconnected from the light, trying to navigating with the best it has resource to in its separative and thus limited perspective.  Its not bad or wrong, its simply limited and out of connection with the rest of itself.  

We lose connection with ourself when we don’t accept, resist or hate a part of ourself.  We might have developed hatred of parts of ourself based on someone else’s distorted perspective of us.  For example perhaps one of our parents didn’t pay much attention to us when we were a child and so we developed the belief that we must not be interesting or important or valuable and we learn to ignore, hate or resist a part (or all) of ourself because we think it or we are not worthy.  Or maybe we didn’t make friends easily when we were a teenager and felt isolated and not included.  The tendency again is to hate this part of ourself because its not accepted or included by others.  We take that feeling of external non-inclusion and make it internal non-inclusion when we decide not accept ourself as well.   

53285081 - light and particles in a dark room through the opening doorOne thing I have discovered through experience time and time again is that when we can dive into that part of self, rather than move away from it, it can begin to heal, to reconnect to the whole of you.  On a physical level this looks like diving into uncomfortable and painful sensations.  Once you can “get inside of them” with your awareness they begin to realize that they are not alone, but instead of part of something else.  Your awareness is the light that is lighting up all other rooms in house.  By bringing your awareness into that dark room it begins to illuminate it.  Illumination brings greater resources to that part which is now coming into communication with more of you.  

In this way the physiology of self-hatred is simply parts of yourself that have lost connection with the bigger and more coherent version of you.  The mechanism of action is non-acceptance of self and the remedy is diving your awareness towards and into these parts so that they can find their way back to the light.  It takes a willingness to feel discomfort on all levels and the courage and faith to know that something else will emerge through on the other side.

Dr. Amanda Hessel, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado

Taking responsibility for others

Taking responsibility for  others

Why we do this…

Responsibility a cloud word on skyLast week I talked about the importance of taking responsibility for ourselves and how it is pivotal if we are to grow up and evolve individually and collectively.  Today I would like to talk about a similar yet different topic of taking responsibility for others.  There is a subset of the population that has learned to take responsibility for others even when it not their responsibility to do so.  

I find that taking on this role of responsibility for others has many faces.  We can most clearly see this in the parent-child relationship.  When a child is young, we do have responsibility for their well-being, however as they become adults that responsibility is no longer ours.  I often see however parents continuing that role past the time when it needs to be played, which effectively doesn’t allow the child to grow as an adult and take responsibility for themselves.  

Another way this can be seen is in the opposite dynamic from above.  What happens is that the parent is not taking responsibility for themselves (or the child) and so the child learns how to tend to the parent’s needs to ensure that they (the child) are taken care of.  When this is learned early on in our life we have the tendency to continue this pattern as adults.  There is an underlying feeling that if everyone else is happy then we will be safe and have our needs met.  This often leaves us feeling much internal “pressure” as we are constantly attuning other people’s states of being to make sure they are ok, and often times we are not even aware of the pressure we feel as it has become so much a part of who we are.  

If we have this pattern of taking responsibility for others then seeing others display intense emotions or upset is very uncomfortable for us.  Our tendency is to shy away or try to make peace.  In that “making of peace” we often take responsibility for how the other person feels, even when it has nothing to do with us, just so that we alleviate the discomfort and uncertainty that we are feeling.     

Finding inner freedom

How to stop taking responsibility for others

The first step in learning how to stop taking responsibility for others is of course awareness of yourself.  You must become aware that you are engaging in this pattern.  Some ways to notice this are if you tend to shy away from direct confrontation, or if you find that you don’t speak up and share your thoughts and opinions easily (mostly because you don’t want to ruffle feathers), or if you are the one always “taking care of things” at a party or in a group rather than letting others tend to you.  

Often those with this pattern have an easy time organizing things, making sure things are in order, multitasking and taking on more than it seems should be possible.  They are often successful in relationships or business because of these skills so it can often be deceptive to unearth this pattern because it just seems like “we are doing a good job at life”.  The down side to this is those with this pattern feel so much internal pressure that they are ready to explode and they don’t even really know it.  There is often terror of others reactions to them and so they don’t share or express themselves authentically, but instead if ways that seem more acceptable or “kind”.  They may use rationalization or logic to calm people down or explain themselves rather than sharing or feeling their feelings.  Underneath it all they feel unseen and unheard because they are not allowing themselves to be seen or heard for fear it will upset others.  Being safe and things being in order and control are more important than their self expression.  

To not take responsibility for others, for how they feel or what they think, and even for how they feel about you, takes tremendous courage for these individuals.  It can feel like a threat to their survival, like their needs won’t be met by the “universe” and like they won’t be accepted by others.  If you have this pattern you must get to the point where the pain  and pressure of trying to hold it all together gets to be too much and where you refuse to tolerate it any longer.  You must realize that it is NOT YOUR RESPONSIBILITY TO MANAGE OR CONTROL WHAT OTHER PEOPLE ARE FEELING.  

Try it today.  Notice where you are holding your breath or holding back for fear of how someone else may respond to you.  Take the risk to not try to make someone else “ok” when they are feeling something intense.  Instead just be with them in the fire, in the intensity and don’t try to make it better.  This is where your inner freedom starts and where you can simply focus on taking responsibility for your self, your feelings and your life.  

Dr. Amanda Hessel, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado

You are responsible for you

You are responsible for you 

The spectrum of taking responsibility

We all fall somewhere on the spectrum of taking responsibility for ourselves.  There may be some areas of our life where we take responsibility and other areas where we don’t. For example we might be really good at taking congruent action in regards to what we eat and our exercise routine, but we may not take responsibility for how we feel on a day to day basis.  We may perceive that the way that we feel is dependent on certain external circumstances (like how our body feels or how our partner talked to us this morning) and therefore the way we feel is dependent on those things and not really up to us.  

The truth is that we are 100% solely responsible for ourselves.  We are responsible not only for our actions, but also our lack of actions, and for how we feel and even the thoughts we have.  I know many of you get this conceptually.  You are probably like “of course, duh”, but this is tricker than it seems on the surface.  Ask yourself how many times you do something in order to feel good rather than just choosing to feel good?  How many times do you allow situations, circumstances and other people’s mood (positive or negative) to impact how you feel either positively or negatively?  Probably a lot.  Get this when we operate in this manner we are always victim to circumstance, meaning we are not in our power.  We are not the one choosing.  We are allowing circumstance to choose for us.  This is called disempowerment. 

One of the tricker things to see here is that it doesn’t matter whether its a positive or negative state that we allow to decide for us how we feel.  If we get ecstatic because our kid made the honor roll, we will feel bummed when they lose that status.  If we get happy because we just found the perfect partner to be with, we will feel sad when we lose them.  In these scenarios the way we feel is dependent on circumstances and situations turning out a certain way and has nothing to do with you choosing how you want to feel.   

Expecting others to take responsibility for us

Our feelings outside of us

As long as we don’t take responsibility for ourselves we will be looking to others or something outside of us to be responsible for us.  This can look a couple of different ways.  One way is by blaming someone (overtly or covertly) for not making us feel the way we want to feel or subtly expecting people to do certain things for us so that we feel a certain way.  

For example say that every day your partner kisses you before they leave the house and its makes you feel good.  Say one day they don’t do it.  They leave without the kiss.  You feel slightly off.  The next day the same thing happens.  You feel a little worse.  The third day it happens again and now you are down right worried and even a little pissed.  You had an expectation of them to make you feel a certain way by an action that they previously did.  Now that lack of particular action has you feeling mad, worried or angry.  The problem is not the way that you feel, instead it is that you are covertly blaming their action/lack of action for the way you feel instead of realizing that you are choosing this particular set of feelings.  What is it like to say to yourself “I’m choosing to be mad, worried and angry”.  Remove it from the situation and simply realize this is what you are choosing to feel in this particular moment.  Now you are taking responsibility for how you feel.  

Another way this can look is a similar scenario but instead of it being another person, maybe its your job, or the weather, or your health.  You can substitute a million scenarios such as “I feel bad because my back hurts” or “I feel bad because its raining out” or “I feel bad because I don’t know my life purpose”, etc.  You are giving your feelings away to external circumstance instead of realizing that you are choosing those particular feelings.  Again its not bad or wrong to feel bad if its raining, or to feel bad if your back hurts, or to feel bad if you don’t know your life purpose, but simply realizing that the “thing” is not the cause of the way you feel, but instead you are the cause of the way you feel. 

One last way this can manifest is when we can’t come up with a “reason” for why we feel a certain way.  We often look for a reason or something to pinpoint or blame for why we feel a certain way.  In fact this is why so many people try to label, diagnosis and figure out their “problems” (problems being sensations or feelings we don’t want) based on some external causes or reason.  Somehow it seems to “make us feel better” if we have a reason why, but the truth is we are always the reason why.  The way that we feel does not lie outside of ourselves.  It lies within us.  The sooner we get this, the more quickly we will move into our true power, which is our ability to see just how powerful we are in that we are truly the creators of our lives, including the way we choose to feel in any given moment. This is also one of the first steps in living a truly integrated spiritual life.  Without this fundamental step we will never own and realize ourselves to be the God and Goddess that we are.  

Dr. Amanda Hessel, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado

Our need to know what’s “wrong”

Our need to know what’s “wrong”

Labels, names, patterns and diagnoses

22175536 - set of tagsWe have a compulsion in our society to know what is “wrong”.  We somehow think that if we can figure out what’s wrong with us by giving it a label, name, pattern identification or diagnosis that some how we will be better equipped to fix it, heal it or change it.  Unfortunately this perspective is flawed.  

When we give something a label or name we make it more solid, fixed and “real”.  Though this gives our mind the ease it often needs by naming a previously “out of control” experience, sensation or feeling it simultaneously does little in helping us realize our wholeness which is true healing.  

Some might argue that when they discover a name for their state of being or condition that they then have a path or means in how to address their issue or condition.  Say for example you have a set of symptoms and you go to your doctor and he/she looks at your set of symptoms and says, “ah yes you have multiple sclerosis”.  Now you can take drugs or do therapies that address the symptoms that you are experiencing to try and repress them or get them to go away.  Some level of comfort or success may be felt by all parties yet has any actual healing happened; any return to a more unified and whole state?  

This entire scenario above is based on the assumption that the symptoms you experience are wrong and should be stopped or suppressed because they are interfering with the life you think you should be living.  What if there was a different scenario?  What if instead symptoms that you experience or sensations or feelings that you don’t like that you experience where simply life trying to teach you something?  What if they are meant to interrupt your life?  Would you still try to get rid of them or would you try to discover what it is they are there to teach you?  

 

Seeing life reorganize itself

Deep listening

8000948 - man looking through a telescope isolated on whiteI have found in my personal experience with symptoms over the years that once I’ve learned what they are there to teach me they abate on their own.  The intelligence of the body resolves them because their function is no longer needed or  useful.  Even things that would be considered “incurable” by western standards I’ve watched resolve time and time again.

So what is required to allow for this course of action?  A change in our perspective in how we view disruptive, disturbing or uncomfortable sensations or feelings.  What if symptoms were there to teach us how to love ourselves more?  Or what if they are there to teach us how to relax and be present or to guide us down a different path in life then the one that we are currently on?  These are some to the rich lessons that can be learned when we stop resisting and trying to figure out our symptoms, and rather listen to and be with them.  

This is a radical shift in perspective for most.  The tendency to resist, get rid of, change or “freak out” when we experience a sensation, feeling or state of being that doesn’t feel good or “right” is very strong.  We must first recognize our tendency to do this and catch ourselves in the act.  When we have the capacity to catch ourselves in the act we have an opportunity to change our perspective.  The perspective change is from one of operating out of wrongness and being motivated by fear to one of operating in acceptance of what is and being motivated by seeing what life is teaching us through this.  

This requires deep listening and a willingness to feel what is below the surface of our freak out. We will be different and we will transform as we change our perspective.  We will be able to see more clearly what is really going on rather than going on an epic search in the dark trying to finding the next magical cure that will be the one to fix us.  We will feel a drop into greater acceptance of what is and thus greater acceptance of ourselves.  This is the only way that true transformation can occur.  Everything else is efforting.  

We reorganize to more efficient configuration when we transform.  We essentially start to “work” better.  Though it may be challenging to really shift perspectives when we do a whole new world of possibilities becomes available to us.  

Dr. Amanda Hessel, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado

Experiencing interconnectedness

Experiencing interconnectedness 

Human and galactic nervous systems converge

16988199 - illustration of the human nervous systemMost people are somewhat familiar with their nervous system.  Your nervous system is made up of your brain, spinal cord and all of the nerves that come out of the spinal cord and connect with all the parts of your body.  Because you have a nervous system you are able to perceive the world around you, including receiving information from your body, and also you are able to take actions on your environment and use your body.  

Your nervous system is your communication system.  Without a nervous system, or without an aspect of your nervous system, some communication is lost.  We can see this most clearly when people have a stroke.  A part of their brain “dies” due to either a leakage or absence of blood flow in a particular area of their brain and therefore they lose connection to being able to perceive or take action in a particular part of their body.  

So what does this teach us?  It teaches us the absolute importance of nervous system in its role and function in communication and connection.  Just because someone say doesn’t perceive or can’t move their left arm or leg, which often happens in the case of a stroke, it doesn’t mean that their left arm of leg isn’t there.  It simply means that the connection and communication within the nervous system to that part of their body has been lost.  

Many scientists say that we only use a fraction of our brain, some say as low as 10%.  If this is true it means that there is a lot of dormant “possibility” laying untapped in our brain.  Like the example of a stroke, some function is “lost” when we lose part of our neural connection or circuitry, this to could be true of that untapped potential as well.  Meaning when more of our brain “wakes up” or comes alive with energy then more information can be perceived, information which was previously unaware to us because we didn’t have a way to attune to it, and new ways of movement and action become available.  

What does our individual nervous system have to do with the galaxy or universe?  Science has now proven that the space between people and objects is not empty.  It is actually packed full of untapped energy and information.  Many people talk about this as the “field”.  There are areas of study that are looking at how this field is organized and some are finding that similar to the human nervous system, the field is also an interconnected communication system, connecting different star systems, galaxies and various locations in space together.  

80799039 - earth. view from space. elements of this image furnished by nasaIf for a moment we think about ourselves as a miniature field (instead of a physical  body) and we are able to perceive and take action within the field of ourselves, that makes sense to most people.  Now lets say that our individual field can expand and as it expands it starts to interact with a larger field.  When it interacts with a larger field now we begin to perceive, take action and move differently because we are accessing more energy and information than previously when we were just experiencing our own individual field.  Its like our own individual nervous system begins to make connection with a larger nervous system, so now we have a different experience of ourselves and thus reality.

How big or expansive our individual field is or becomes, is correlated with our level of awareness or consciousness.  Consciousness is simply a state of being that corresponds with a particular perspective or view and that view has certain amount of energy and information available to it.  For example if our general default perspective of life is that life is happening to us and that we are the whim of circumstances and conditions, or that resources are lacking or could become scarce, the amount of energy and information available to us is capped at a particular amount or frequency range.  If say we have a general default perspective that we can impact and influence life in positive ways and make a difference, the amount of energy and information available to us is capped at a higher amount or frequency range.  And so on and so on.  

When we have greater awareness levels we have access to more energy and information and our field is actually larger.  When our field is larger we are now perceiving and taking action differently then if are field was smaller or more contained to itself.  This is how we begin to experience more and more interconnectedness.  As our awareness expands and up-levels we quite literally become larger and merge with more aspects of what I call the “galactic” nervous system.  

This is how Network works.  The small areas I touch are called spinal gateways.  They are a little access points into your individual nervous system.  With repeated touches these gateways begin to stretch, expand and grow and as they do your individual field stretches into a larger field.  In that larger field you have more awareness of yourself, beginning with awareness of your physical body, moving into awareness of your emotional and mental bodies and also your soul body.  When you begin to touch into and communicate with your soul body this is where you experience (perceive and take action) via interconnectedness.  

Interconnectedness is not some made up concept.  It is as real as anything you currently can perceive such as your physical body, or emotions or thoughts.  Its simply that until we have the neural circuitry to perceive it, and our field expands into a larger field, we tend not to believe it.  So just like the example of when a person has had a stroke and they deny they have a left arm or leg, the same is true for having a soul.  When I say soul it simply means an expansion of your individual field into a layer or level of the field that knows and experiences interconnectedness..  Again this is dependent of your level of awareness, which then corresponds to the energy and information available to you and the degree to which your individual field can expand and merge with greater and greater ranges of the universal field.  This constantly changes, grows, and is an evolving process.  This is why so many people do so much inner growth work, to resolve those things that don’t serve, that drain our energy, and keep us smaller than we actually are.  Clearing those things in our system frees us up by expanding our awareness, increasing our energy range and literally becoming larger as our human nervous system merges with the galactic nervous system and we experience and become more and more one unified, universal field.  

Dr. Amanda Hessel, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado

Finding clarity in the dark mystery

Finding clarity in the dark mystery 

The role of our nervous system

28469896 - a child is hiding his eyes in the dark and looks scared or upset.Many of us desire more clarity.  This may manifest as a desire to have greater intuitive seeing and knowing or more direction and guidance in life.  Sometimes we may feel confused, lost, or like we are walking blindly or directionless.  We may plead or beg those “forces outside of us” to give us more clarity, direction, guidance or the answers we seek.  This leaves us feeling like we are at the mercy or whim of life, often times holding our breath and hoping it all works along the way.  

So how do we find clarity and guidance in what can feel like the dark mystery of life?  How do we know while simultaneously not having a clue?  The easiest, and least mysterious way, to gain clarity, direction, intuitiveness and guidance is by acknowledging what is and moving towards.

What does it mean to acknowledge what is and move towards? Let me back up.  Remember when I said that most of the time we are holding our breath and hoping that things work out?  This is true for most all of us.  We tighten our muscles, clench our jaws, hold our breath, sometimes we attack ourselves or others, and ultimately we try to not really look at what is happening while hoping that things turn out a certain way that we deem as positive or good.  

Why do we do this?  We do this because we are bracing ourselves for the unknown.  These visceral responses are part of the fight, flight or freeze responses that our nervous system responds too when there is perceived threat or danger.   We feel that if we brace ourselves than perhaps the impact of whatever happens won’t be so great.

 

Moving towards

Acknowledging what is

Largely the reason why we feel cut off, disconnected or lost is because our nervous system is so busy processing and responding to our perceived threat of the unknown (aka the mystery of life).  We perceive the unknown as dangerous or scary and therefore we lose access to the bigger whole that we are, which includes our sense of knowing and clarity.   

Its kind of like being lost in a storm that our mind and biochemistry created and not being able to see anything outside of this small perspective that we are existing inside of.  This is called defense physiology and it is a result of living in a defended and protected internal state.  There is a posturing that comes along with this particular state of being which is called defense posture.  In defense posture the head comes forward of the body and leads our life while the shoulders and chest draw inward protecting the heart from feeling too much, or sometimes from feeling anything at all.  When we are in this state we are only accessing a limited portion of ourselves which is why we often feel lost, disconnected, unclear, uncertain and eventually frustrated and stuck.  We lose touch with feeling and when we can’t feel its very hard to have any clarity in our direction, purpose or knowing.  We simply do the stuff of life but don’t feel much connection to what we do.  

48837246 - cliff jumping into the ocean at sunset, summer fun lifestyleIn order to gain clarity, connection and inner knowing we must begin by acknowledging what is present instead of  avoiding, managing, or protecting ourselves from it.  When we begin to acknowledge what is we are bravely moving towards the unknown rather than retreating away from it.  This is a bold step and it will feel unsettling in our body as our nervous system will still be running those patterns that say “this isn’t safe, protect, shutdown, protect, attack”.  It is through our persistence and willingness to feel uncomfortable and move towards the unknown of what is, even with the fear response activated in our physiology, that we begin to “override” these fear based responses in our physiology.  

We must experientially move through (not just think about in our heads), feel the discomfort of uncertainty, so that we can come through the other side having survived.  Through this experiential process our nervous system lays down a new pathway.  When we have acknowledged what is and have felt all of the scary stuff associated with it, only then do we have the knowing of exactly what to do and how to do it.  The mystery reveals itself to us. 

Dr. Amanda Hessel, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado

Maintaining energy richness

Maintaining energy richness 

Energy states

energy statesOur energy state is pivotal to how we engage with life and how our body functions.  When we are in an energy poor state we have little capacity to do anything other than survive. We typically can’t engage fully in our daily activities, our bodies are ill and there isn’t any energy available for growth, social interactions or contribution.  We are merely trying to make it through the next moment or day.  

Energy neutral is one step beyond energy poor.  In energy neutral we have enough energy to engage in our day to day activities and be “functional” humans, but we are often tired, don’t feel like engaging with others much and have the need to disconnect or check out in order to recover.  Our bodies are not in crisis, but there may be a few things not working as well as we would like them too.  This is the zone where most humans hang out in their energy state.  

Then there is energy rich.  When we are in an energy rich state we are alive.  We actively participate in our lives, our bodies are not just maintaining status quo, but instead are getting healthier and more vital.  We can show up for ourselves and for others.  People often describe flow states as being energy rich.  This is where life seems to unfold effortlessly and in synchronicity with everything else.  

We all have probably had tastes of each of these energy states at various times in our lives.  More often than not when we are not in an energy rich state we are trying to figure out how we can get there again.  So what are the keys to maintaining energy richness?  How do we live there rather than just visit periodically?   

Choosing your state of being 

Realizing the power of choice

47912357 - businesswoman standing in front of opened doors and making decisionEnergy state is based on your level of awareness.  Let me explain.  Most of us do not realize that we are choosing our lives.  What this means is that we have thoughts, emotions and sensations that we believe are random occurrences; that these things simply happen to us.  We are not aware that we are the chooser of such things.  What is it like to stop for a moment and entertain that the sensations you feel, the emotions you experience and the thoughts that you have are not random?  Do you believe it or does some disbelief arrive?  

It is the disbelief that we are the chooser of the things that we experience and that there is seeming randomness in what occurs to us that makes it difficult for us to maintain the energy state of our choosing.  This is because we don’t realize yet that we are choosing.  So how do we realize that we are the chooser and that life is not happening to us, but instead that we are happening to life?  

It begins, as with everything, with awareness.  So what is awareness?  Awareness is the noticing of what is present without being merged with what is.  What this means is noticing your sensations, emotions and thoughts without identifying yourself with your sensations, emotions and thoughts.  For example, say you have the thought “I am stupid”  and you believe that thought to be a true reflection of who you are, you are merged with the thought instead of realizing it is simply a thought and not you.  When you are identifying with thoughts such as these the highest level of energy you will ever experience is energy neutral.  If you are identifying yourself with certain emotions you will have energy neutral to energy poor states and if you identify yourself with your sensations, such as being your pain or a physical condition, you will experience energy poor states.  

Energy rich states result when you realize that you are not your thoughts, feelings and sensations, but simply are aware of them.  When you are aware of them you can be present with them instead of merged with them.  It can seem scary to stay and be present with some sensations, feelings and thoughts.  As you do things may arise in your awareness that you have had a tendency to push down or avoid previously such as inadequacies of self, feelings of powerlessness, shame, etc., but as you stay present instead of merged with, you begin to realize that all of those things you were afraid of are just smoke and mirrors, illusions, never actually real.  As you stay present and aware more and more, you being the chooser of all of your life experiences becomes increasingly apparent.  This is ultimately how you claim, own and live energy richness.  

Dr. Amanda Hessel, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado