STABILITY IN THE MYSTERY
End your avoidance of the unknown
Let’s face it, life is one big fat mystery. No matter how much we create meaning, define, categorize, label, plan, coordinate and directionalize our lives, at the core none of us have any real clue as to what this thing called life really is or what is going to happen next. We spend an awful, and I mean awful, amount of energy attempting to navigate, predict and strategize the next move and the next move, juggling the pieces and the parts, so that nothing falls between the cracks or goes contrary to the plan. Mind you those cracks and plan interferences are the one and only place that we can actually get a taste of the true mysterious nature of life rather than this self-architected, controlled chaos that we’ve attempted to create and which we call life. The cracks, which we avoid like the plague, are our only real hope of seeing through this illusionary story of the life that we’ve created and deluded ourselves into believing as the one real, true reality.
Why do we avoid the cracks and the plan interferences? There are a couple reasons. The first being that we have an assumption that we are right or that the way we see the world is right, so when something occurs that doesn’t seem to fit with what we think should be then we view it as wrong and create a splice or separation in our perspective. This divide comes with the sense that we need to fix the situation somehow, to right it so that it is no longer wrong. Life then becomes a constant play of attempting to fix, solve, or correct things so that they align with our “right” perspective. If things don’t align with our right perspective we suffer, if they do align we feel temporary goodness while silently waiting for the next shoe to drop, or the next problem we need to solve. Another way to say this is that we avoid the cracks because we have certain internal expectations or stories about life, about our life specifically, what it should look like, feel like, all the things that need to happen or not happen, etc. If something comes along that interferes with the ideas that we have about our life we often dislike it because we view it as something that shouldn’t be, as a deterrent. We fail to see that what is happening should be happening just as it’s happening and we attempt to “get our lives back on track” without seeing that our life could never truly be off track. We avoid the mystery of the thing we view as the “deterrent” brings, because we feel like we don’t know inside the mystery and we fight to get back to the known, which is this proverbial track we think we should be on.
Clearly this demonstrates how much our minds like to be in the know. They like to feel like they have a plan, that they know what is going on and where they are going. They also like to know that certain things will be guaranteed and that there will be some sense of certainty, safety and security in whatever outcome they desire. The mind is very uncomfortable when it senses that it doesn’t know, doesn’t have a plan or things aren’t guaranteed. It might feel stupid, scared, confused, lost, limited, disappointed, unsafe, unstable, wrong, ashamed, etc. when it perceives that it doesn’t know what’s going on or where it is going. This is yet another reason that we avoid the cracks and plan interferences. When our sense of safety, security, purpose, value, worth and validation is dependent on circumstances (i.e. plans and life occurrences happening or turning out a certain way) then we manipulate, control, effort and at all costs try to make life be what we think it should be.
ENDING THE STORY OF YOU
Reunification in God
So really what’s so bad about the mystery? Well as I’ve described above, from the mind”s perspective the mystery can be completely terrifying. It is the end of our perceived sense of rightness along with death of the perspective of wrongness, which most of us want desperately to hold on to even though it feels soooo bad. Feeling safe, secure, stable and comfortable in the world of objects being in a certain place or configuration dissolves. Instead one must learn to be in a constant state of faith, never ending faith, in which true safety and stability is found. Living in the mystery can also be the end of feeling that you are on your path or purpose, which is connected to one’s worth and value as a person. I will make a side note here that a person first does need to develop a sense of individual purpose and worth, which is often achieved through their capacity to make things happen in the physical manifest world in a particular way. This is a stage of ego/self development and an important one. However what I am pointing to here in this article is the next stage where that illusionary sense of worth, that has been derived based on one’s capacity to make things happen, is ready to be seen through and transcended so that true inherent worth and value can be known.
Coming face to face with the mystery and deciding to stay there without trying to make something permanent takes your willingness to end your story about life. Most people are not ready to end their story. The story, the thoughts, the concepts, and the ideas is where most humans hang out. Its fantastical, with ups and down, highs and lows, drama and boredom, creation and destruction, and although it seems very real from the mind’s perspective, it’s ultimately unreal and simply all made up in your head. The mind has a great capacity to make things appear very real, very physical, very solid, and it is only through finding your way through your mind by falling into the cracks and going with the plan interferences that the seeming realness can reveal its un-realness to you.
The beauty of the mystery is that it is the birthplace of infinite energy and infinite possibilities. It is prior to form or manifestation. As you trek forward in your development and awareness of self, in a way you are actually trekking back, back to the beginning, to the more primordial state of being. At some point you realize that there is no forward or back but rather that everything is occurring right now. This is presence. This is having arrived. Arriving is not stagnant or stationary but it is stable. Stable not in the made up world of appearances and ideas, but in its knowing of it’s self. The more allowing you are of the mystery the more stable you are in your true self. To not have to know anything in particular, but instead to move into knowingness itself, which ironically is the mystery, brings the freedom of being beyond a separate person living for its survival, protection, importance and worth.
This is the beginning of life not being about you, not being about your plan, your goals, your wants, your desires, your dreams, your problems, your needs, your perceived purpose, your perspectives or your anything. This ending of your personal life opens you into the space of God, of infinite intelligence and energy, and an unwavering stability in the mysterious unfolding of this thing we call creation or life. As no longer a separate object in a universe you move with and as, rather than making up stories about what is. Nothing recognized as separate, disconnected or wrong. No attachment to what you think should be. You realize movement and stability as one in the same as they arise out of each other. Yes this is a seeming death of sorts, a complete dis-identification with everything you think of as you and which makes you who you think you are. At some point all consciousness will arrive here, however your choice to consciously and deliberately choose the end of your perceived self-importance will accelerate your return to unity. To join with God again in consciousness, in awareness, is to remember yourself. All that is required is the end of the separate personal you who thinks its living a life for its own and even for others betterment. In truth there is no such thing. There is no you and there is no others. There is only God being and God expressing. There has never been anything else. Everything else has been made up.
Dr. Amanda Hessel, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado