LEARNING WITHOUT FAULT
There is no self-deficiency in learning
Learning is the natural rhythm of life. From my perspective everything is learning. Many of you have heard me say this time and time again. All too often we get caught up in what is occurring, meaning the content of what is happening and what we think it means, and we forget that there is a bigger overarching learning at play. We lose sight of the learning and begin to take the content of what’s happening seriously, as if we are going to lose something valuable if we don’t. We think we somehow need to grasp onto the content, rather than recognize all as learning and not as something to hold onto or keep in place. As I see it, the intention of life is learning and sharing. There isn’t anywhere in particular to arrive or any place to get that is better than where we are now. There is only learning at and in, each stage of our development.
When we take the content of life seriously and forget that all is learning we tend to live in scarcity, fear, blame, fault and self-hatred. Our life becomes a series of subtle control and manipulation attempts to make sure that we feel ok. We compromise ourselves in order to feel safe, and escape from learning because we see it as too threatening to what we have and who we are. We attempt to hold onto the stuff of our life, particular our identity, at all costs because we perceive threat rather than learning. When we are confronted by learning, but choose safety instead, we walk with our guards up and defenses engaged, ready to protect ourselves from learning which we perceive as threat.
When you remember that all is learning you instantly stop creating fault, because there is no fault in learning. Learning does not imply deficiency, even though we relate to it as if it does. We believe that if we don’t know or haven’t learned something then we aren’t meeting the mark, something is wrong with us, or we are behind. We create all kind of stories that we are never going to get it, that we are bad or that no one will love us because we are undeveloped in such or such way. We traverse the pathway of self-hatred believing that we are somehow not enough or unworthy because of the learning that is presenting itself and that we don’t already know it. We really must stop and ask ourselves the questions: how did we become so defensive to learning and why do we have such resistance to growth, change and seeing ourselves in novel ways? When you realize that all of your defensiveness is really just protection, protection from learning, it starts to all seem quite silly. When the very thing we say we want is healing and growth, and yet we shut ourselves off or down from learning, we find out just how absurd all of our protection really is.
LEARNING IN INNOCENCE
All learning is remembering
There is an innocence, a rarified purity, at the core of each and every one of us. It’s that which is untouched even by our own self-critical and judgmental mind. That innocence knows only itself and its self is love. It is the bliss that passes all understanding. That essence so fully knows itself already because it remains untouched by all of experience. Yet the you that you currently know yourself to be has been immersed in experience for many, many years. Experience is content, and when content fills the screen of our awareness we lose sight of ourselves, of the pure, innocent, fully awake being that is who/what we are. This is not a problem, but it does create the necessity for learning, for remembering ourselves.
How I see it is that all learning is remembering. We have simply lost focus of ourselves, and therefore we get to have experiences that point us into the direction of remembrance. Experience is learning, and all learning is remembering. If you can grok this you can see that learning can never be based in deficiency, but rather only in forgetting or having lost focus of your essence. There is no fault in this, there is only the game of finding your way back to yourself. The moment you take yourself or your experience seriously, as something that needs to be fixed or solved, you’ve stopped forward momentum towards your self on the game board of life. This is often experienced as feeling lost, stagnate, stuck, depressed, anxious, and tense.
Innocence and purity is what you are. Bliss and love are the core flavors or your being. All else is experience/content that is placed on top of that. Don’t confuse yourself for the content of your life. Don’t misidentify yourself as the labels you or others have given you. You are without labels. This does not negate self-responsibility. In fact it does the opposite. It makes you fully responsible to your own remembering of yourself, which is the prime impulse of this entire creation. The desire to remember ourselves is what drives this entire universe back towards itself, towards its primordial knowing. This is what is called awakening. Your remembering, your awakening, is not outside of your reach. It is inside of experience. It is the core of all learning. If you push away learning, or you push away yourself because of learning that presents itself, than you push away your awakening of remembering more of you.
Learn to welcome learning. Stay in open invitation to the mirrors that show themselves to you. They are your allies, your guides, your messengers from you to you. They will guide you home, to yourself. It’s impossible that any aspect of life, in its infinite expressions, could ever not be included in the all that is. That means that all forgetting, all learning, all remembering, all of what we are now, is part of the perfect orchestration of creation. There is no fault in your forgetting. There is no fault in your learning. It is as it should be. Recognize and play the game. Have fun. Embrace yourself as you are now. Nothing is lost. All is fully complete and abundant. Radiate and be who, what and where you are now and for eternity.
Dr. Amanda Love, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado