Being an empty vessel
All day long we are bombarded with things, people, thoughts, feelings and sensations. Our nervous system is pretty much always taking in information and almost never throughout our day are we completely quiet or empty of these things.
For most people quiet or empty is scary. It triggers our wounds of not doing enough, contributing enough or being enough and also feelings of being alone and separate. Simultaneously, on a deeper level many people crave inner stillness and emptiness yet can’t seem to experience it because they are so entrenched in these patterns of production and doing.
In our culture production and achievement is honored, while quiet stillness is seen as lazy or unproductive. The thing about production and achievement is that it keeps us continually out of the present moment and always into the future of what we are creating and doing. It sets up the conditions of getting our “to do list” done and that equalling a productive day. Rather than movement, action and productivity being inspired from inner stillness, it is an effortful process that is directed by our minds.
Now I’m not suggesting to stop all doing and action, but instead to value the quiet as much as the noise. Since we are predominantly noise driven in our culture (whether externally or from our own minds) we have not learned how to rest in stillness and therefore can never really hear much beyond our own mental thoughts about things. This limits us to one perspective, which is our own. Our perspective is only one piece of the whole and therefore provides a limited amount of insight and wisdom.
Being of ultimate service
One of our fears about stopping inner or outer activity is that we will not be in as great of service to others. When we begin to value inner stillness it may require us at time to say no to things or not help people when perhaps we think we should be. So we do and we do, and our doing fills a need, a need in us to feel significant through helping others or being productive, yet we also ignore the part of ourselves that actually feels a stronger no than yes at times.
It is not until we can become innerly still that we can really be of service. When we empty out ourselves of our thoughts, feelings, sensations, and things we become present. In presence all information that is needed is readily available. Learning to rest in inner emptiness teaches us to be present. Presence is the most powerful and energizing state that there is.
Being an empty vessel is of being in ultimate service. Though it may seem that then you have nothing to give or contribute in this state, the opposite is true. You now have everything to give and contribute. You are dynamic and alive and also rested in presence. You have emptied yourself of yourself, of a you, of a being that has needs, wants, desires and preferences, at least temporarily. In a way you transcend your ego, which is your small, personal self in order to be of even greater service. A service of which is yet unknown to you and to be revealed. Surrendering the need to know and being ok in the mystery are necessary. Things are revealed to you exactly when and how you need to know them when you are in a state of presence.
The clearer your nervous system is, the easier it is to be an empty vessel. When you experience level 2C of Network care it is called a “clear out.” What that means is that your nervous system temporarily suspends all anchors to you as a sense of self (person) through your spine. Momentarily you experience a state beyond who you believe yourself to be. This is a pattern interruption and provides the opportunity to experience yourself differently (beyond yourself). It requires surrender and the result is inner stillness, emptiness. When you enter and progress through level 3 of Network care you realize that the emptiness is filled with light and the light is who you actually are. Hearing the unheard and seeing the unseen become your reality. I call this neurological freedom and find it is essential for being more empty of self so you can know even more of who/what you truly are and be in ultimate service to all.
Dr. Amanda Hessel, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado