Your Life is not Your Own
The Grand Symphony
We tend to believe that our life is about us. We make goals, plans, and have dreams and aspirations that propel our life in certain directions. We think that we are driving the train of those directions and that the fruition of our aspirations means something about who we are. While in some ways and to some degrees this is true, ultimately the events of our life including the ways that we feel about our life mean very little about who we are or what we think our lives are about.
You may wonder why this is. You may think “but my life feels like mine”. The larger truth however is that there really is no “you” for which to have a life that feels like yours. The you that you think that you are is based only on thoughts and ideas that have come together to create the personality that you’ve come to label as you. There is no real separate personality you. There is only thoughts of a separate personality you. Everyone in spiritual circles knows conceptually that everything is one and that there is no separation yet we continue to believe ourselves to be a separate person. Separate from not only other people, but also spirit, god or “higher self”.
This idea of you that you’ve come to know yourself to be, which has become your full identity, is what interferes with you knowing who and what you really are. If you had the recognition of yourself that was not filtered through the lens of you being a separate person than you would instantly realize that your life is not your own. That all the events that occur are are simply a web of interconnected dots in the larger matrix of creation and really have nothing to do with you personally. Now this doesn’t mean that things and events don’t occur through this perceived sense of you as this particular body and mind because they absolutely do. Your body-mind vehicle is the way that things get expressed and brought into creation. It’s simply that those things that express through you are not about you. The root of much of our suffering as humans is due to this simple misidentification of believing that that which gets expressed or created through us is ours.
The desires, dreams and aspirations that excite us and propel us are impulses from spirit or higher self. These impulses, which we call our desires, are the way that spirit orchestrates all the parts of the symphony getting us to play our parts at exactly the right moment and in the exact right harmony. In this way the masterful song of creation comes together whether or not we can see or hear what all the other parts of the symphony are playing. Only the grand master, who is the ultimate organizer can put all the pieces together to make the most coherent musical masterpiece.
The End of Fear
It should by now be clearly evident that there is something going on beyond what our minds know and what our senses can perceive. Our lives are not just about what it is we think they are about. Our actions, the directions that we take or don’t take in our lives, and the things we create, are really part of a much bigger picture that we mostly can’t see. Considering this is the case why is it that we worry, fear, fret, overanalyze, and judge our actions, others actions and everything that is going on in our world? Why do we try to control and manage the details of it all? Its simply because we believe that our life is our own, that we are solely responsible for it all and we are disconnected from that larger organizing principle or the grand master of the symphony.
Due to this disconnection from the larger and the feeling like we are on our own we doubt and judge rather than trust. Because we grip onto our life as our own we live from our head and not from our heart. We wonder why we don’t feel divinely guided, supported or lost and unfulfilled and can’t see that we have not created the invitation for spirit in our lives because we have been so busy deciding and determining what all of the events of our lives mean. We’ve left no space inside of our interpretations for anything other than what we think. We can’t seem to get out of the way long enough to see that what is occurring or happening is exactly what is perfectly supposed to be happening or occurring.
Facing the perfection of everything requires us to face our own ignorance. Our ignorance which thinks it knows what is supposed to be occurring from its tiny, minuscule perspective. The truth is that our minds don’t have a clue and yet we believe them to a fault. This is our error and our suffering. We all want some magic bullet that will make everything perfect and peaceful and happy and yet we fail to recognize that we are the magic bullet that we seek. It is our sole responsibility, our one and only true responsibility, to align ourselves with the accurate perspective that there is nothing that is not in perfection just as it is. Until we are willing to align ourselves to the perspective of perfection and give up our faulty perspective of perceiving error we will experience our own judgment over and over and over again and remain in the circle of suffering.
The end of perceiving error is the end of fear. When you no longer see wrong you no longer have any reasons left to fear. Survival physiology ends, defense posturing becomes irrelevant. There is no longer anything you need to protect yourself from. It’s the end of the over-analyzer, the worrier, and the anxious one. Simultaneously it is the birth of the healed one, of love physiology and of the posturing of openness and commune with spirit. It is the recognition that there is no “your life” separate from anything and the allowing of the movement and impulse of life to move through your body-mind.
Dr. Amanda Hessel, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado