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Commitment to Getting It

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COMMITMENT TO GETTING IT

Moving through the rocks

We all experience roadblocks, stop signs and that general feeling like we just don’t get something.  Confusion, frustration or apathy sets in and we settle, stop, or avoid the thing we desire altogether.  We can’t seem to get past the rock sitting on our path, so we set up shop right in front of it.  Although we see and feel it’s presence, we accommodate to it, get used it to being there, and live our life with a big rock sitting in front of us.  We may even pretend that the rock is not there or like the thing we desire to experience doesn’t actually matter to us, but deep down we know that it does.  We have a hunger for something that will not be satisfied until we find our way through the rock.  

While the rocks on our path seem solid, they are made up of only our thoughts and perspectives, which really are not solid at all.  Our insistence of and in our thoughts and perspectives makes them seem solid, but at their essence they are just flittering energetic fluctuations in our field.  Yet even so, these flittering fluctuations can feel like impenetrable steel rods through which nothing can pass.  So how do we get through that which seems impossible to get through?  The degree to which we are committed to getting whatever it is we want to get, feel, or know, will determine whether or not we pass through the obstacle sitting in front of us. 

There is an important exploration that must be undertaken if one is to move through.  It is the investigation of what is really stopping you from committing.  Are you afraid of failure? Or success?  What would you lose if you penetrated the rock?  Maybe relationships, how people see you, money or other resources.  How would your identity have to change?  What stories would you have to uproot?  Perhaps ones that say that you don’t have enough time, energy, skill or knowledge for this thing or that thing.  Your rock is filled with so much mental distraction, diversion, and nonsense, and so you don’t commit.  You aren’t committed and you have a thousand and ten reason why you can’t.  Seems that things are stacked against you.  You play out the victim role in your own story and live with your perceived obstacles sitting right in front of you.  Pretending that you can’t do anything about them.  That they are somehow bigger than you, when in actuality they are just vibrating energy patterns.  What vibratory energy waves are you riding?  Are they the ones that say that things will never change, or that your life will always be like this?  Or are they the ones that know it can be different, those which say that you can get, feel and know whatever is relevant for you and which is in your highest desire and alignment. 

COMMITMENT IS CARING 

Your landing

Anything and everything can be moved through by us if we have the commitment and care to do so.  Committing to what we want is caring.  It’s caring about ourselves, our expression, our calling, and who it is we are here to be and share.  We owe it to ourselves to see what our obstacles are made out of, so that we can live fully self-expressed and be of genuine service in our lives with ease and grace.  Sometimes we may feel that to commit is to be trapped, but I invite you to see commitment as a landing.  It is a landing into yourself while simultaneously going beyond yourself.  That’s where becoming a living, breathing source of service comes online.  Where you are birthed into why it is that you exist and are a pure transmission of the frequency of yourself.  

Landing is bringing everything that you know, that you are, here.  It is falling in love with yourself.  It is falling in love with your life.  This all takes commitment.  Make your landing worth it.  Face towards the dark unconscious aspects of your psyche and invite them in for dinner.  Converse with them.  See what their core beliefs are.  Listen to their perspectives.  Understand how they view the world.  Don’t avoid them, pretend they don’t exist or feel hopeless because of their presence.  They exist and it’s ok.  The more you move towards them, the more they reveal themselves to you.  Through your seeing of what is really there, you have more inner resourcefulness to navigate through them.  

If you choose not to embark through your obstacles you can still have a good life experience, but your expression will be limited by the seeming rocks on the road, of which you are unwilling to truly face.  It’s not as scary as you think to face them as you are really only facing your thoughts, ideas and beliefs about things or yourself.  As you face them you see that what you’ve been believing, consciously or unconsciously, is not really true.  Sometimes we really want to hold onto beliefs that don’t feel good simply because we think they are right, but as we further investigate and challenge them, we create holes in their stories.  Those holes allow new information, thoughts and ideas about who we are to seep into our awareness.  

Your desires are your lights along your path.  Follow what you are hungry to get, feel or know.  Don’t insist on that looking any particular way, but commit to what you are here to experience and share.  Be prepared to give all of you in order to get all of you in return.  Your commitment is your giving, and the fruits of that are your receiving.  What you allow to land, to come all the way through, is then what you can offer others.  Your getting is your giving and your giving your getting.  There is mutual reciprocity.  So commit to getting it, whatever your “it” is.  Penetrate the rocks on your path as they show themselves to you.  Walk up to them, feel them, sense them, see what they are made of and then move through them.  They are not as solid as you think they are.  Arrive on the other side and experience that which you desire too.  All is there, patiently waiting for you, ever present and freely given.  

Dr. Amanda Love, Network Spinal Analysis, Boulder, Colorado

Being Turned On To Life

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BEING TURNED ON TO LIFE 

Bliss is always available

We all love being turned on.  It’s one of the reasons there are so many humans running around this planet.  The sense of invigoration and aliveness that comes with being turned on is so essential to who we be and how we feel and experience life.  It is our natural state, and from which all is born and breathes.  Yet we often reserve being turned on only for the bedroom.  Why is it that ecstatic states of bliss and rapture only happen quietly behind closed doors?  Why are we so afraid to express that zest and aliveness that is us, that is who we are, when no one is looking? We may perceive that we don’t know how else to be turned on, or that being turned on only comes with certain sensations that our body feels, yet to be turned on is a choice.  It is a choice that we permission when we feel certain sensations with our body, but we don’t need those sensations to feel bliss.  Bliss is always here as a stream of consciousness that is available if we attune our antennas to it.  

How do you attune your antenna?  The first step is the permission that it’s ok to feel good.  Well this may seem very basic, many of us carry around beliefs that it is not ok to feel good because of this or that reason.  We feel we can only permission ourselves to feel good when such and such thing is happening or not happening.  However feeling good is always an option.  It’s just not the option that you always choose.  You don’t always have to choose it, you simply need to see that you always can if you so desire.  Once you give yourself permission to feel good, there really isn’t anything in the way anymore.  You can continue to perceive obstacles if you so desire, but again that’s your choosing based on the stories you are telling yourself about what is.  The second step is to see goodness in everything.  As you see the goodness in what is, it will reveal itself to you.  The more you see good, the more good you feel.  That’s common sense if you ask me.  It’s really not more complicated than that.

Feeling good is elevating your vibration, the frequency in which your energy bodies oscillate and pulsate.  The higher your frequency the more turned up and on you feel.  Your physical senses heighten, you can perceive more of the subtleties that are all around you, and the clarity from where you see increases.  You feel powerful, because you are powerful.  Self-doubt fades into the background and the field of ever expanding love and aliveness reveals itself to you.  You can perceive what’s been here all along with ease because you are no longer insisting on feeling bad about this or that thing.  You are allowed to feel good, in this moment and throughout eternity.  Nothing truly interferes with this except your attachment to your stories about feeling less than good.   

THE CHOICE TO BE EMBODIED

Getting on board with being human

Outsourcing our choice to feel good, to the sensations we feel with our bodies and the circumstances of our lives, keeps us constantly chasing.  Chasing for our next fix of feel good.  We look for this relationship or that relationship, this substance or that substance, this teaching or that teaching, this project or that project, to give us the thing that we can easily and readily give to ourselves at any moment.  We are the source generators of feeling good.  Being turned on to life comes first through being turned on inside of you.  If you aren’t lit up inside then nothing will look bright around you.  Again it’s logical, yet we don’t always make sense of logic.  We think we must get good, rather than generate good, in order to feel good.

For some there may be a preliminary step to the choice of feeling good and permissioning states of bliss and rapture in their everyday ordinary life.  This step is the choice to be embodied.  Some of us don’t much like having our awareness be focalized in a human form.  Being human comes with a lot of experiences, some of which have not and will not be pleasant.  In addition to pleasurable sensations we also feel painful ones.  For some this equates to non-safety and the desire to not be human.  In fact for most, being in a human body doesn’t feel like a choice.  It feels like it just happened and now here you are.  It seems like you didn’t get much of a say in the matter and therefore the active choosing of it is lost.

Getting on board with your human life being a choice helps you get behind it and into it.  Sometimes it seems safer and easier to stay on the outside, to not commit to too much, and just get through your life rather than live it in ecstasy and pleasure.  This way you avoid confronting disappointment, your own or others, and you perceive less threat.  Often it feels like it’s too much work to choose life and make it enjoyable.  Yet this is the most natural way of being. The simplicity of existing and enjoying as the essence of what is.  You deserve to be here, because you are here.  You deserve to feel good, because you can.  

Being turned on to life is a radical perspective shift for most.  It’s inclusive of the seeming ordinary existing that we do as humans and also goes beyond it to include outrageous states of connection where laughter, joy, and waves of elation are also the ordinary.  Where there is levity because we recognize the inseparable spirit that we are, which is the awareness that makes the human body come alive.  Our identity shifts from being a human trapped in a physical body, to a spirit that inhabits a physical form.  This frees our awareness to be even more expansive in our perception of our sense of self, what we can notice, and where we are located.  We become less fixated as an individual person and more in recognition of ourselves beyond the separate personality self.  Paradoxically the choice to be human, and the permission to feel good, expands us out beyond the experience of a localized human into the free awareness that we are.  This doesn’t mean that we leave our body, rather contrary, it means that we more fully take up the space of our body, both our physical and all of our subtle bodies.  We come to know more of ourselves, experience more of ourselves and live in ecstatic rapture with ourselves.  

Dr. Amanda Love, Network Spinal Analysis, Boulder, Colorado

Safety & Support

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Safety and support.  These two seem to go hand and hand.  If we feel safe, we feel supported and if supported, we feel safe.  A sense of safety is what gives us permission to relax, to breathe, to be.  When we don’t feel safe we guard, we tense, we hold back, we pretend, and we don’t fully express ourselves, because we feel at threat.  Whether that threat is external, as in something or someone might hurt or harm us, or internal, as in we might hurt or reject ourselves, it leads to the same experience of constriction and non-fullness.  In contrast to be rested in a well of safety, allows us to drink in the fulfilling sustentation that is the essence of life.  It allows us to feel ourselves and our interconnectedness within the web of creation.  Being outside of the well so to speak, keeps us vigilantly alert to the protection of our survival, as a self-contained being that feels it has nothing to rely on except perhaps itself.  

What exactly is safety and how does one experience more of it?  Safety is a felt sense that all is well.  That no matter what is or isn’t happening, you are ok.  There is an undisturbable stability in safety.  How do you rest into this sense?  One might say that it’s a process, and one could also say that it occurs in a moment.  In any moment where you tune into the fact that you are ok, you come into contact with the rest of safety.  You likely experience this often throughout your day, you just simply don’t tune into it as it’s in the background of your awareness, not the forefront.  What you are more keenly attuned to, is when it is, that you don’t feel safe.  There is an alert, tense, unrested quality that appears and your awareness fuses with that experience.  It then seems like that is all there is.  You paste this moment onto all moments, and life then feels like one continuous stream of unsafety. 

To some degree we have all experienced feeling not safe.  We have all felt some types of physical, emotional or mental threats from self or others.  Whether it be physical harm, wars, rape, medical procedures, fires, car accidents, deaths, robbery, unkind words spoken, rejection, rigidity or any of the gamut of unpleasantries, we’ve all felt the need to protect ourselves from something.  You could say that the entire unwinding process that one goes through is to unwind the tension accumulated from actual and potential threats.  Many of the threats that we experience are micro.  We simply feel them as tightness in our body and when pointed to, we let them go.  While others feel macro, more personal, deeper, and like we have been sifting life through them since we were wee little ones.  

NAVIGATING UNCERTAINTY

Learning to relax

It seems as though one of the prime challenges of being human is navigating uncertainty.  We simply just don’t know what is going to happen next.  Then, put on top of that, having lots of unpleasant experiences, and it sets us up to feel like we can never take a full breath because something bad might happen if we do.  Relaxing feels unsafe.  Being tense feels safer.  So even though we don’t like the experience of feeling tense all of the time, we choose it on a subconscious level because it is the safer and more familiar choice.  We feel that at least this way we won’t be caught off guard, and maybe we can prevent potential harm that may exist in the next moment.  While this is logical to the aspect of ourselves that is scared and has been hurt, it doesn’t make as much sense to the part of you that just wants to relax and enjoy life.

We find ourselves in the conundrum of wanting to relax and not wanting to relax at the same time, or said another way, wanting to just be and not wanting to just be.  What do we do from here?  Do we risk allowing ourselves to relax and then potentially feeling hurt?  Or do we continue to hold tight, brace ourselves and prevent the blow of impact that might be coming our way whenever it pleases?  There is a perceived risk involved in opening, allowing, relaxing and being.  Is that a risk that you are willing to take?  For some the answer is yes and for others it’s no.  There is no right or wrong here.  It is not about forcing yourself to relax, which is quite the paradox, but rather it’s like creating an invitation.  You don’t always have to say yes to the invitation, but sometimes it’s nice to go to the party.  To experience the peace and joy that taking a full breath brings.  

In order to transmute and alchemize the painful experiences we’ve experienced, we must find a way for the breath of our awareness to get inside of them.  Without that we simply experience life through the lens of the tension pattern that has been created to protect us from feeling.  How does our breath get into these places that we don’t want to feel, that we didn’t want to experience, and that we wish hadn’t happened?  It takes a willingness to turn towards the turmoil, the demon, the darkness, and accept it.  You don’t have to accept that it was ok, but only that it happened.  Fair or unfair.  Right or not right.  Just or unjust.  You allow what exists to exist and end the resistance to the fact that it occurred.  That’s the first step that allows breath.  Whatever it is, whatever it was, it happened.  In that moment of acceptance your awareness starts to unwind from the tension pattern and it begins to notice that something else exists besides it.  That there is more here than what you’ve been able to attune to up to this point.  That there is indeed another frequency or flavor of existing.  A world of safety and support peaks out from behind the clouds.

This is the process to experiencing more safety and support in your day to day living.  If you are in resistance (ie. tension) you won’t feel safe and won’t attune to the safety that is here.  You will feel unsupported and unable to see the support.  You will operate self-contained and like a separate aspect of creation rather than interconnected within it.  None of this negative, it’s simply a flavor of experience.  In order to have a new flavor there are perceived risks to take.  The risk to let go, to unwind, to breathe, to relax and to feel joy.  The more you take the risk to feel these frequencies, the more accessible they will become to you.  Soon enough you will find yourself experiencing the feeling of safety and support, taking in the nourishment of life and living in harmony with yourself and your environment.  

Dr. Amanda Love, Network Spinal Analysis, Boulder, Colorado

Your True Significance

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YOUR TRUE SIGNIFICANCE 

Downloading programs

Seems as though we are constantly seeking for something that is not here.  We chase sensations, emotional states and experiences that satiate our need to feel full and complete.  There appears to be an incessant hunger that never feels satisfied.  Living in a near constant state of dissatisfaction is the norm for most people.  Always waiting to get to the next thing where we can momentarily feel relief from the gnawing emptiness of our ordinary lives.  We project the emptiness that we feel inside, onto the screen of our lives.  When our screen is full of stuff we notice the inner hunger less, but when the screen appears sparse we begin to feel that ache again.  The impulse to keep things full so that we don’t have to see or feel the emptiness inside is like an addiction.  We will create anything we can to keep our minds diverted from our inner world.  Sensations, relationship problems, health challenges, and money difficulties are some of the ways we keep ourselves outwardly preoccupied so that we don’t have to deal with the emptiness inside.

You might say that this emptiness is rooted in a belief that we are not enough.  It is the collective programming that we all give and receive once we incarnate into these human forms.  The good thing about programming is that it can constantly be upgraded.  As soon as we find something that works better or is more efficient, we can download the new program.  We don’t have to, but we can.  We clearly know this from the age of computers and cell phones.  The same is true for our psychological software.  When you see or recognize that something works better, or in this case, feels better, you can upgrade to that program if you so choose.  Programs in this case are beliefs or perceptions.  

Now you know that when you download a new program upgrade for your computer or phone, you don’t go back and forth between the old and the new.  You don’t download version 14.2 and then keep going back to download 14.1 or 14.0.  You just stick with the newest version, that is unless there is some major flaw with it, and in that case you typically just wait until they work out the bugs and create version 14.3.  You also know that you don’t get rid of the old program, you just simply choose what program you want to operate in and download it.  You choosing 14.2 doesn’t get rid of 14.0, it just makes it so that 14.2 is the program that you see.  

You can do this with your beliefs as well.  There is no one saying that you need to oscillate in between a belief that says you are not good enough and than one that says that you are.  You can just pick.  It doesn’t mean the other belief goes away, it just means that you don’t operate inside of it anymore because it is not functional in your device.  You can make it functional again if you want to, but you don’t have to.  This doesn’t bypass anything.  It just makes you in choice and in charge of what programs you choose to run.   

THE PARALLEL REALITIES OF YOUR CHOICES 

You are the king/queen of your game

You can think of each of your choices as parallel realities because that is what they are.  Choices to see or believe one thing will lead to different experiences than other choices.  This is obvious but we often don’t really recognize the power we have to determine our experience of reality.  Despite what you might think, there isn’t one objective reality that everyone experiences the same way.  The experiences of so called reality are as varied as the multitude of infinite perspectives interpreting what is seen.  What is seen determines how we experience it.  So while it may seem that everyone looks at an airplane, or a flower, or a rock and sees airplane, flower and rock, this is simply because we have agreed upon definitions of these things and therefore all see them the “same”.  Yet you are the definition maker, so you can decide to define anything you see however you would like to.  There are no rules here except the ones you decide to impose.  How you define what you see will determine how you experience it.   

This brings us further down the rabbit hole of parallel realities.  Let’s say your car just up and combusts one day.   You look out into the parking lot and see that it is up in flames.  How do you interpret this?  One choice is tragedy.  You loved the car, it has sentimental value and it can never be replaced.  Your experience of reality is irreparable loss.  Another choice is to look out in complete neutrality.  You have no care either way.  It doesn’t matter at all what has happened to the car.  It is simply a logistical matter of cleaning up the mess.  Your experience of reality is neutrality.  A third choice is to look out in excitement.  You perceive this to be the best blessing that has ever been bestowed on you.  Now you get to look for the car of your dreams.  Your experience of reality is an exciting future.  While on the appearance level all three of these choices may look the same, the car explodes, the car gets cleaned up and you look for a new car, the experience all of these three choices is radically different.  These are different and distinct realities even if on the surface they look alike.  Don’t be deceived by the appearance of things and conclude that if it looks the “same” it is the same for everyone. 

As we continue to evolve we are likely going to go in the direction of further seeing, recognizing and utilizing the power that we are to create what we want our experience of reality to be.  It’s not that we go out to the thing over there and change it.  It’s that we change how we see that thing over there and it then becomes another reality for us.  I know this seems too simple and your mind probably has resistance to the little amount of effort this takes and perhaps doesn’t believe it has this much power, yet reality is inside our minds, not out there inside of things.  There is nothing inside of things.  They are empty.  You are what is full.  You, we, the collective of humanity has had it backwards all along.  We infuse life with the abundance of our awareness, energy and perspectives, life doesn’t infuse us with anything.  It is just a neutral, blank slate for us to make meaning out of.  Because we have all been so conditioned to believe that the stuff tells us who we are, we have taken on the emptiness of stuff as a reflection of ourselves.  We think that more stuff will make us feel less empty, but if we are courageous enough to look deep down inside, we will see that more stuff makes us feel even more empty.  This is because we are putting more reflections of emptiness of substance in our mirror reflection called our reality to look at.  Then we wonder why we feel so worthless, powerless and like we and/or life are not enough.  

Disengage from the game you are playing with yourself.  You are operator of this whole shenanigan that you call your reality.  Stop deluding yourself that you are a pawn in the game.  You are the king/queen.  This is your game.  Choose in alignment with your preference.  

Dr. Amanda Love, Network Spinal Analysis, Boulder, Colorado

From Progress to Power

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FROM PROGRESS TO POWER

Choosing your definitions

Progress seems to be a linear path.  We move from point A to point B, from one place to another place inside of our being.  Our hope is that as we move along the path, we are improving, getting better and making progress.  We fear going from point B to point A, as we see that as lack of progress and do our best to avoid that at all costs.  From our perspective we view only forward or backward directions, and if we don’t perceive that we are moving in the forward direction, then we don’t feel as good about ourselves.  We always want to know that we are getting better.   

Let me a pose the question.  What if there is no better? No progress to be made?  Progress implies a starting point of less than or incompletion, so if we entertain that there is no better, than this would mean that there is no incompletion or lack in this very moment.  That in this very moment, all things are, well, fully good.  What stands in the way of you seeing that all is fully good now?  I will give you the answer to this one.  The only thing that stands in the way of you seeing that all is good now are your definitions of the things that are present inside of your experience.  How you define things determines how you see them.  Say for example that you discover something on or in your body.  Your definition of what that thing is, determines your experience of it.  Or say you see a situation happening in your environment, again however you define that situation determines your experience of it.  This isn’t a permission slip to be negligent, but rather an exercise to see how much power you have over what you experience.  In fact that is the opposite of negligence, it is total responsibility for your experience.  How we see something will determine how we interact with it and how we perceive it interacts with us.  

If how we define things determines how we experience them, then why can’t we define what is here now as complete?  Well in fact we can.  We are the meaning makers of the entirety of this experience for ourselves.  We can either make up our own meanings or we can adopt the meanings that others have made up.  Again it is entirely up to you.  Now you may not feel like you have this amount of power, but you do, and as far as I can tell there is nothing you can do about the fact that you are powerful.  Your power to choose your meanings is your free will, and no one or thing can take that from you.  You can make up definitions that say you don’t have this amount of power, but it is still you making up those meanings.  You are the source of your experiences even if you don’t like what you are experiencing.  When you grok this you will clearly see that you’ve had the power all along to shift anything and everything.  Nothing has ever been outside of you. 

THE VORTICAL PATH 

Expanding spirals

Now let’s circle back around to directionality and progress.  As you can likely see now, progress is really all smoke and mirrors.  It’s creating definitions that something is or isn’t here now, and will or won’t be present at some future now moment, and somehow things will be better or worse than they are in this moment.  This is the path of suffering, burden, effort, and drain.  Outside of momentary glimpses where you perceive things are aligned as you desire them to be, you never arrive anywhere.  That’s because there isn’t anywhere to arrive, but when you buy into the path of progress you are deluded by your own belief that you can’t decide at any moment what things are.  It seems that things have to change in order for you to experience something different.  This is never the case.  

Now the paradox of this all is that all things will change.  In fact everything is in constant motion, changing configurations of atoms and molecules, at much faster rates than we can perceive.  Billions of times per second.  You are not who you were a second ago.  What creates a sense of constancy are the meanings and definitions that you give to things.  Your personality is a set of beliefs that you continue to belief over and over and over again about who you are.  This is why you seem solid and like you don’t change much, except for maybe a little by little over time.  If you don’t change your beliefs about who you think you are, then it will seem that you are always the same and your experience of life will be mostly routine, predictable and seemingly stable.

While it appears that we are on a linear trajectory going from birth to death, that our bodies are aging, and that we are trapped on this straight line, a more accurate description is more like nonstop changing configurations that appear to get held into place by our definitions of who we are and what life is.  As a bridge of sorts between these two perspectives of linearity and a nonstop all at once-ness, there is the nature of the spiral.  Rather than a straight line there is a coil that expands out from the center.   A point on the spiral that is closer to the center is not better or worse, or more or less complete, than a point on the spiral that is further from the center.  The only difference is perspective.  That point which is further out has an expanded view.  It can see more of the entirety of the spiral.  

From the spiral you can view your sense of progress.  There isn’t anywhere better to get, there is only different perspectives that allow you to see from different vantage points.  You will naturally uncoil, express and expand, and as you do things will appear differently to you.  You will recognize more and more your power to choose how you see, as your vantage points change.  With this your sensations, feelings and thoughts will follow suit.  Remember everything responds to how you see it, even down to things that seem the most physical and solid.  There is no true solidity, just different wavelengths of frequency in constant motion.  Your definitions determine your experience.  All the power to experience your reality as you so choose, my friends, is yours. 

Dr. Amanda Love, Network Spinal Chiropractic, Boulder, Colorado

Fall in Love with Your Experience

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FALL IN LOVE WITH YOUR EXPERIENCE

Rest into your life

While it isn’t always in the forefront of our awareness, we all know the preciousness of life.  We get that this body and our life only exists now, and that at any moment everything could be different.  Yet we are often looped in a perspective of sameness.  Sameness that feels never ending.  Like things will always be the way they are, and if we don’t like the way that they are, then we experience suffering.  Suffering is the experience of being out of love with ourselves and thus our experience of life.  Things look bland, feel bleak and lack the magic we want to experience.  We find ourselves here, in a space of discontent and hopelessness, without any seeming reason or knowing of how we arrived.  We think something is wrong with us and keep seeking to find some magical answer to it all.  Yet that answer never seems to arrive.

The answer is actually starring us right in the face, but it’s too simple for us to recognize.  It’s so blatantly obvious and yet somehow we don’t see it.  The root of it all is that we are not in love with our experience of life.  When we are not in love with what is, we don’t experience the magical aliveness that is here now.  We seem to think that being in love with our experience is not in our control.  It appears that something outside of us is controlling how we feel about our life.  Yet there is nothing out there that is.  I dare you to look for the actual thing that can control whether or not you love your life.  You might project that this person, that situation, this feeling, that sensation, or some other inadequate, unjust or non-right thing is the reason why you can’t love your life, but none of those things contain your power to choose whether or not you love what is right in front of you.  

So often when we discover something that we don’t love we try to go out to the thing and change it.  We join a social movement, get a face lift, move locations, change jobs, build a new business, end a relationship, and on and on.  While none of those things are negative and all have their place, they don’t do anything about or to the love that is available for us to feel at any given moment about whatever is present.  We may use those things as permission slips to feel differently, but in truth we could have felt differently about any of the things that we didn’t like, had we simply chosen too.  We are the source of however it is that we feel about our experience.  This is our free will and we are always free to choose.  Falling in love with your experience is not as hard as you think.  It’s simply a matter of choice and has nothing to do with the experience itself.   

GRATITUDE IS THE PATH

Your experience is enough

It’s easy to get caught up in the idea that your life is not enough.  That somehow you need to be experiencing something better or more than you are now.  While I am not saying that there is not more to be experienced, because there always is and likely always will be.  What I am saying is that whatever your experience is right now, it is completely full, abundant and magical in and of itself.  Your life experience will not be better once you think you’ve done, accumulated or achieved everything that you think you want too.  Rather you will simply arrive there and then there will be more.  Stop getting caught up in the idea that you are going somewhere.  You aren’t.  This is completion now.  And now.  And now.  And now.  

You might wonder what the path is to actually feeling love for your experience.  The conceptual game of pretending you love your life when you really don’t will only get you so far.  And considering there is no where to go, there really isn’t a path.  It’s more that there is a choice in this moment to be grateful for what is.  From that choice a new experience of your experience happens instantaneously.  Why gratitude?  Because gratitude is the frequency of love.  It will instantly put you in the vibratory state of being that you desire to experience.  Just like that with no strings attached.  When in gratitude you can’t be out of love.

Gratitude is the how.  It is going directly to the source, that being you, and making the change there, rather than trying to change the happenings of your life in order to feel differently about it.  You can still choose to change the happenings up if you so desire, but only because there are different forms that are relevant for you to play with and not for the reason that you are trying to move away from something.  Whatever you attempt to get rid of will persist.  It will find another way to express in your life, because nothing can be gotten rid of.  Consciousness only changes forms, it does not seize to exist.  Everything that exists is consciousness expressed.  

Loving your experience of life is loving you.  It’s recognizing the divine perfection of every single form, configuration and expression of life.  Anything less than this is suffering.  Nothing can be left out of perfection.  Even when you don’t like what is, it is still nonetheless absolutely and completely perfect.  Coming back to this knowing and then having gratitude for what appears as a perfect expression of consciousness, is the key to eternal happiness.  Try suffering while having the perspective of perfection and gratitude for your life.  It’s not likely that you can.  Your liberation is in your control.  It has always been, even though it hasn’t always seemed so.  

Young children and baby animals are in love with life.  Watch how they interact with everything in awe and wonder.  It’s because they are in wonder and awe.  They are rested in joy.  So to can you be.  It’s not far away.  It’s here now in this very moment and resides in your free will to choose how you see.  Choose to see wisely and I guarantee you will fall in love with your experience of life no matter what that experience is.  

Dr. Amanda Love, Network Spinal Analysis Chiropractor, Boulder, Colorado

The Ecstasy of Self-Responsibility

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THE ECSTASY OF SELF-RESPONSIBILITY 

Getting beyond confinement

Many people have aversion to the word responsibility.  It often comes with a sense of dread or the feeling of burden or weighing one down.  Most people don’t feel ecstatic rapture when they say the word responsibility.  But why not?  Why does responsibility feel so heavy to us?  Often it is because we associate the word responsibility with commitment and/or control.  We feel that if we are responsible then it means that we are in charge of how things turn out.  We take this to mean things such as how other people feel, the happenings of the arisings and movements of life, and the arrangement of the landing of all of the parts.  Ultimately our mind knows that it isn’t in control of all of the things, but it doesn’t want to accept that fact.  So rather than embracing the obvious we create resistance, aversion or a compensatory over responsibility to anything associated with responsibility.  

It is common that people feel trapped by their responsibilities.  Responsibilities feel like nonnegotiable death sentences.  This makes us avoidant of commitment because we fear not being able to get out.  Get out of what exactly?  The feeling that we are trapped, that we can’t do the thing we want to do, or that something arbitrarily is limiting us in some way of which we have no power or control.  It’s no wonder we feel adversed to responsibility.  What we fail to recognize is that knowing our power to alter ourselves or a situation comes from taking responsibility.  If we don’t take responsibility for ourselves and our life we will be thrown around and controlled by it.  We will feel aimless and adrift rather than feeling directional and like we are fulfilling our purpose for existing.  

In talking about responsibility we must also dive into what it is we are responsible to.  Are we responsible to our inner alignment or to our sense of obligation or approval by others?  Are we committed to being perceived a certain way or are we committed to being ourselves?  Are we attempting to control others or be in charge of ourselves?  These are different allegiances.  When we attempt to get approval, do things out of obligation, or control others experience of life, we are over stepping our responsibility.  While it might feel like the safe, proper or right thing to do in the moment, long term it will take a toll on us.  We will feel greater and greater victimization to our lives and less and less powerful.  We will project that our life’s circumstantial responsibilities limit us and will avoid being fully committed to ourselves and our lives.  This is a life that is functional, but lacks the luster of one’s full expression.   

RESPONSIBILITY IS SEXY 

Being responsive

The root of the word responsibility is response, or to respond.  To be responsible means to be responsive.  You could also say engage, participate, play, or co-create.  Most people don’t have a negative definition of those words.  The negativity arises when there is an association with control beyond what one can or should try to control.  You could say that you are only truly responsible to your alignment and your state of being, meaning how you feel and the actions you take in your life.  You are not responsible for what happens.  Period.  Imagine the amount of self-forgiveness that every being in the world would feel if they understood this, and with that amount of radical forgiveness occurring imagine what a softer world we would live in.  Where we all felt freer to be responsible to ourselves, acting in alignment with our joy and feeling good.  

Are you starting to warm up to responsibility yet?  It’s pretty darn sexy, but you don’t really know that until you try it on. Responsibility is an expression of your power.  When you are responsive you feel dynamic, like you can impact and influence your life.  You are energized and alive.  In contrast to this, when you avoid responsibility you feel confused, uncertain, and like you are waiting for life to give you something like an answer, a clue, a sign, some money, anything, anything at all.  The source of you feels outside of you because you haven’t owned yourself as the source.  You haven’t taken responsibility for you.  The thing that you are waiting on is you.  For you to arrive on the scene, to show up in your life and guide the way, through radical self-responsibility.

Radical self-responsibility might be the sexiest trait in existence.  It’s to be rooted in your power no matter what the circumstances of your life are or what the other people in your life are thinking or feeling about you.  It’s to be fully effected and infected by the state of being or your preference.  It’s choosing what you want to feel over and over and over again, despite what your mind keeps telling you that you should feel about whatever is happening in your life.  To master yourself in these ways is to be radically self-responsible.  

Imagine if your true mission in life is simply to feel as good as you can feel.  The ultimate challenge being, to not allow anything to interfere with your feeling of goodness.  No sensation, no emotion, no thought, no word, no idea, no belief, no nothing interfering with you feeling good.  This doesn’t mean that there aren’t waves of seeming disruption or incoherence in your life experience, it just means that you actively and awarely choose what you desire to feel rather than what you’ve been conditioned to feel in response to those waves.  Not as a denial of your experience, but as the chooser of it.  You don’t let anything knock you from your true self, your true primordial state of goodness of all is well.  It can become a game you play with yourself of how much goodness can you feel now, and now, and in this situation and that scenario.  What will be your biggest challengers?  Money, time, emotions, sensations?  You are bigger than them all because you are the creator of them all.  They only exist because you do.  Recognize yourself more and more as the source of your experience and come to intimately know the ecstasy of self-responsibility. 

Dr. Amanda Love, Network Spinal Analysis Chiropractor, Boulder, Colorado

Communing with Higher Self

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COMMUNING WITH HIGHER SELF  

Getting clear on higher self

You may wonder what your higher self is.  There are many names used to describe this aspect of self.  You can interchangeably use the words soul, divine essence, infinite intelligence, or inner wisdom, with higher self.  It is the aspect of you that has a wider lens through which it sees and knows.  It is the prime organizer and orchestrator of all things macroscopic, such as the spinning of galaxies, and all things microscopic, such as how the cells in your body function and behave.  There is no form that your higher self doesn’t inform that is relevant to your existence.  Higher self is the source of all information and energy, which gives rises to all of creation.  

Higher self may not be directly evident to you, meaning you may not see some magical being or have some type of extrasensory perception or knowing of it.  However it is evident in the fact that you exist, that your body breathes, that you move about, and that your life endeavors work as they do.  Higher self is in everything as ordinary as your day to day routines and also informs seemingly fantastical things such as psychic abilities, light travel and connection across the cosmos.  Higher self leaves nothing out.  This then begs the question as to how you might experience higher self more in your life when it’s not directly evident to you, particularity when you feel lost, confused, disconnected, powerless or hopeless.  

First you need to dissect out exactly what it means to you to experience your higher self, and what it is you want to know or experience that you currently are not.  Maybe you want to feel more intuitive, have greater clarity, or sense things beyond your physical senses, because somehow you know that there is more.  Perhaps you want to feel more deeply connected, intimate with all of life, and you desire to experience more flow and ease as you move about in your body and this world.  Getting clear on what your desires are will help draw those experiences to you.  Desire is a portal of attraction, which brings to you those things that your heart longs to experience or know.  The catch is that it may not look like what you think it is supposed to look like.  You might not become a psychic shop owner, or be able to “feel” energy, or have all of your body aches and pain go away.  Yet if you keep your eye on your desires they will in someway show up in your life exactly how you need to experience them.  Your mind may be disappointed that it doesn’t look how you thought it would, but if you let go of your pictures you will be more readily available to see what is in front of you, and how it is a match for exactly what you need. 

HIGHER SELF TECHNOLOGY 

Upgrading the nervous system

Our physical bodies and minds are vehicles for higher self.  They are both made out of higher self and also allow higher self to express through them.  In a way you could say that your body and mind are technology that your higher self uses to create and experience life through.  Now you might not have ever thought about your mind or body as being technology, but they are some of the most sophisticated, self-organizing technology on the planet.  The wiring and complexity of the human nervous system allows us a range of sensory-motor movement patterns to sense, feel and take actions with our bodies.  That same wiring allows for communication between all of your cells, so that all of the organs and glands in your body perform their necessary functions.  It also allows for language comprehension and production, memory and all higher brain functions.  Without all of this neural wiring your higher self would not be able to experience and create life as it does now with your body.  

Your body’s nervous system is like its hardware. Whenever hardware gets upgraded, for example like when you get the next best iPhone, then new software programs that have greater efficiency and functionality can run throughout the device.  In this analogy you can think of your body as the phone, your nervous system as the hardware, and energy and information as the software programs.  Energy and information are the essence of experience.  Energy being the substance or forms of creation, and information being the blueprint that informs the forms that are created.  When your body’s hardware (ie. nervous system) gets upgraded you are able to access energy and information differently.  This can look like a million different things, but to sum it up there is increasingly more and more coherence in your experience of life.  With greater coherence you feel clearer, more connected, experience greater flow and ease, and begin to expand your perceptions beyond where they currently are.

Receiving Network Spinal Care is a way to upgrade the hardware of the human nervous system.  Network Spinal lays down architecture that allows for more information and energy to be accessed and utilized by the nervous system.  What this means for your experience of life is that you experience a larger range of what is available to be experienced.  Your physical capacity expands, your emotional range increases, you have greater mental clarity and you feel more connected to, with and as your soul or higher self.  

This is not an overnight process.  It takes time to develop this new hardware, but once it’s developed you have new pathways into self-knowing and self-experiencing.  Advancing the technology with which your higher self can communicate and move through means that you create life differently because you have novel information from which to create from.  You realize more and more that you are not bound or limited by your physical form, but that it is only one mode or form of expression that you have at the fingertips of your awareness to utilize.  You know yourself more and more as the source of expression rather than as the form of expression.  You rest into the master seat of yourself and play endlessly with the forms available to you.  

Dr. Amanda Love, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis, Boulder, Colorado

Dynamic Aliveness

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DYNAMIC ALIVENSS 

Field of self-organizing expression

There is a field of intelligent is-ness from which all movement, forms and expressions arise.  This field of intelligence is self-organizing, unified and complete.  There is nothing that exists that is outside of this field.  It is existence itself.  Some might call this consciousness or awareness.  That which is all knowing, all pervasive, and inherent, inside of and as every seemingly distinct movement or expression.  There is nothing separate from it.  You and I and everyone in between, is this.  Whether you are human, tree, animal, mountain, extraterrestrial, angel, interdimensional being, or any of the infinite myriad of forms that exist, you are this.  This one intelligent source that pervades, gives birth and creates everything that can and is experienced.  

This field of consciousness is the orchestrator of this entire infinite cosmic creation.  It is the aliveness that animates, invigorates and gives rise to every form.  Each form has its own mode of receiving, transmitting, utilizing and being utilized by consciousness.  Every form that has some type of nervous system can interact with consciousness.  The more sophisticated the nervous system, the more capacity the form has to actively participate with this intelligence source.  Consciousness is light.  Like the rays of the sun it brightens and illuminates.  It is awake and aware.  The brighter the light, the more energy contained in its stream.  With a larger density of energy comes more coherency.  Coherency means greater intelligibility or clarity.  Coherency coheres, meaning it is one.  The more coherent the light, the more it is in the expression of its oneness.  

The human body has a nervous system with a particular degree of complexity that allow us to actively interact with consciousness through the form of our body.  This why we can be self-aware, and why we can take deliberate actions on, through and with our body.  Though it may seem that the body is the mover, it is in fact consciousness that is the mover.   Consciousness moves the body.  The body doesn’t move the body.  The body without consciousness is inert.  It does not move by itself.  The degree of complexity of the nervous system of the body, in which awareness inhabits, will determine the expression of that body and how much light or consciousness can move through that form.  This means your experience of life in your body is relative to that, which the form you find yourself in now, can receive and transmit the light of consciousness. 

LEVELS OF NERVOUS SYSTEMS 

Connecting to the Source

Now consciousness is much bigger than the body you find yourself in now.  Your awareness and/or awareness itself, is not limited to the physical body.  In fact you have multiple bodies that are bigger and beyond your physical one.  Each of those bodies have their own nervous systems, located in the subtle or etheric planes of your existence.  Those bodies also utilize consciousness in different ways than your physical body does.  While the physical body utilizes light to organize how the organs, glands, muscles and elements of your physical form function and move, your less physicalized bodies receive and transmit different information.  Some use light to organize your emotions, others to organize your thoughts, and still others to organize your soul.  Levels of nervous systems all organizing themselves so that you can have the experience you are having right now in this moment as a human being on planet Earth.

The physical, emotional, mental and spiritual nervous systems all have plasticity.  This means that new pathways and connections can be formed inside of them that allow for different expressions to manifest and experiences to be had.  This is essentially what learning is.  As we learn at any level of our being, we make different connections and pathways.  This is an infinite process.  Learning and creating is endless in this cosmic soup of unbound, limitless consciousness.  In the physicalized human focus, the nervous system of our soul may be our least illuminated one.  The body where we are not as awake and able to receive, transmit and utilize consciousness.  This is why we generally feel disconnected from ourselves and each other.  The nervous system of the soul is the body where we can receive and perceive interconnectedness.  It is where telepathy and beyond our ordinary sensory perception resides.  It is the body of the heart.  The heart which feels, knows and can see itself from multiple perspectives of itself.  The nervous system of the soul allows for the most coherent light to come through it.

All of our bodies work together.  They inform one another.  Our physical body responds to our emotional, mental and spiritual bodies.  Nothing works in isolation, because at their source they are one in the same source.  Consciousness simply expresses itself in different ways based on the nervous system it has to express through.  People who consider themselves to be on a spiritual path have the impulse of desire alive in them to wake up more of their soul body.  This is what it is to come from and live from the heart, to experience your spiritualness while in a human body.  For the heart to lead the show of this human life, inclusive of all of our bodies.  For that more coherent stream of consciousness to light up one’s experience of existing.  

Here is where it becomes more evident that the mover, the orchestrator, is not the personality or the body you.  Instead where the mover is that intelligent, self-organizing source of all.  Life becomes more effortless.  You stop trying to be the doer.  Your identity becomes more and more merged with and as that one source.  As that source all of your bodies respond in accordance.  This is the awakening of the slumber of the disassociation of ourselves from ourselves, and the remembrance of what we’ve always been.  

Dr. Amanda Love, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado

All Inclusivity

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ALL INCLUSIVITY

Ending your suffering

It seems as though there is always something inside of our experience that we are trying to get rid of, move past or make different.  A near constant restlessness or unsettledness with what is here now.  It appears that we can’t have the peace and happiness that we desire until said thing or things somehow change.  For most of us, this is our every day reality.  We are immersed within the vibrational state of consciousness of things never being quite enough, quite right or quite as we want them to be.  We strive, we work and we do in order to attempt to feel and experience life in the ways that we want to and yet we never seem to arrive there.  Feelings of frustration, anger, hopelessness and powerlessness arise as we fail at our attempts to make our life experience be as we think it needs to be in order to feel what we want to feel.  We get a little hopeful when something changes in the direction of what we view as better, but soon enough things change again in ways that we view as unfavorable, and we find ourselves in the endless cycle of suffering.  

Logically we know that acceptance ends the cycle, yet our minds don’t want to let go and feel what is or isn’t here that is not preferable or desirable to us.  Acceptance of what is feels like acceptance of failure, and we dislike not winning at the game we are playing.  The mind wants to win.  It wants what it wants, and what it thinks it needs, and it is very hard for it to see anything else.  It is particularly hard for it to see that whatever is showing up inside of our experience of life is exactly what we need.  When our experience is hard, painful or unpleasant our mind’s capacity to stretch and include what is here gets fervently challenged.  We insist that something must be different in order for us to experience what we want, and yet if we stopped our insistence even for just a few moments the light would begin to shine through our mind.  The light of a stream of consciousness that is different than the one we are in.  One that is brighter, more illuminated and more aware and awake.  One that has a wider perspective and is more inclusive than where we currently see from. 

This stream of aware, awake consciousness is not reserved for a just a few special, spiritual people.  It is for all and is all.  It is you, but from an expanded view of yourself.  This stream is always here and always accessible, however sometimes it seems like it’s not because our hold on our limited perspective is so strong.  We want to keep insisting that something we are experiencing should not be included inside of our experience.  Our unwillingness to include, keeps us disconnected and feeling separate and powerless from life, and from this larger view of our selves. 

UNDIFFERENTIATE SOURCE 

Ordinary & Higher Mind

While our minds think that they are in charge of everything, they are not.  In actuality our minds are not designed to know what will happen, when it will happen, or how it will all happen, yet this is what we attempt to use our minds to do all day long.  Our minds are simply filters that allow us to operate inside of this reality that we are experiencing.  For a moment I want to differentiate between what we call our ordinary mind and what we call our higher mind.  Our ordinary mind is what we are all most familiar with and what we think of as who we are.  It contains our stories, identities, rules and programs about what we think life supposed to be.  Its focus is self-preservation.  It does not see or know the bigger picture of life and how everything is orchestrated personally, planetarily and galactically, nor is it supposed too.  It’s simply not its job.  

The higher mind is the mind that knows.  It is the aspect of our self that does all of the orchestration of life.  It takes multiple views and perspectives into consideration.  It sees beyond anything that our ordinary mind could conceive. It is the one in charge of everything.  We are often not in conscious connection with this aspect of ourselves, yet we can connect to it in an act of surrender.  When we include everything that is inside of our experience and stop resisting any darn thing, we can experience our higher mind.  When our ordinary mind allows everything that exists to exist, in this act of inclusivity we see and experience what the higher mind knows.  While we might not have full understanding of what we see due to the fact we are operating inside of a limited mental framework, we do get to experience peace.  As it is said this is the peace that passes all understanding.  We don’t need to understand everything, we simply need to include it as existing, as part of our experience, and as something that is relevant for us because it is present for us.

Now you might be thinking that you are pretty easy going and in acceptance of most things that come your way.  While that may very well be true I find there is always deeper levels of inclusivity to include.  Maybe you have some annoying pain in your body that you keep chasing after to get it to go away, rather than including and allowing to be.  Perhaps you get irritated by someone in your life, but you brush it off.  Maybe you simply don’t consider the levels of yourself that exist beyond your ordinary human orientation.   Aspects of yourself that are alive in varying planes of awareness and consciousness.  There is always more to include until you arrive back to the very source of undifferentiated consciousness.  The primordial spark from which all of creation was/is created.  Where there is no experience, no thing, and what is knows itself as itself and never left itself.  

The unique spec of differentiated consciousness that you are playing yourself out to be as a human being, in truth has never left home .  Yet in order for us to experience anything we had to give ourselves the illusion that we could be separate.  This is what we call suffering.  Through inclusivity we find our way back home into the one source that we are.  Where we know that what we truly are organizes every single detail of our lives and we don’t have to worry.  Where we know peace inside of our experience of the illusion of separation.  You can know it’s an illusion and still participate in the game.  This is where the peace you desire, while being focalized as a human being, resides.  

Dr. Amanda Love, Network Spinal Analysis Chiropractic, Boulder, Colorado