LEFT OUT OF THE GLORY OF GOD
Denying your Divinity
The primary drive of our soul is to remember and reunite with ourselves. Most have completely forgotten their truest essence and only think or know conceptually what spirit is. We have built up layers of beliefs (aka defenses) that perpetuate the experience of disconnection and separation from our goodness and the glory of God. What do I mean by glory of God? Simply the purest, most distilled, refined and inherently perfect and good true nature of ourselves. We are God, we are the Creator, we are the perfection of all that is expressed through this human form, and yet we deny, push away or resist this thus resisting ourselves and creating a lived reality of suffering, pain and disconnection.
The spiritual journey is the remembering, reclaiming and reuniting with that which we already are and have always been. You have never ever been anything but God expressed through a myriad of various forms, whose form is currently this human body. The beliefs that keep you in resistance and denial to fully knowing this operate ever so subtlety underneath your conscious awareness. This is why it is important to never stop seeking to know yourself. To commit full heartedly to the journey over and over and over again, as without your devoted commitment you postpone the remembering of yourself.
Why do we resist what we are? Why do we resist that we are good, pure and perfect? Simply because we don’t believe it. That’s it. Its really that simple. We don’t believe it. Why don’t we believe it? We don’t believe it because people, who also don’t know themselves, who don’t know their inherently perfect divine self, have conditioned our thinking mind-matrix to be in alignment with theirs. We’ve agreed, consciously or not, to abide by others rules and stories so that we fit in with them, so that our needs and wants are taken care of and so that we aren’t left out. In choosing to not feel left out on a societal and relational level we have given away our own true knowing of ourselves. Anything that feels like it might threaten our basic human needs or wants for resources, love or connection takes precedence over divine connection. To accept or believe that we are good, perfect, divine and complete throws a wrench into our entire internal system and threatens everything we think we know and everything we think we need.
BEING THE CREATOR
We hear so much these days that we are the creator, but is this something that we just say in spiritual circles to feel cool or do we really, really get it. Do we really get just how powerful we are or do we still think that our lives are happening to us kind of randomly? Many people think they are more self-empowered than they actually are. By in large people are living disempowered even if they are doing and saying all of the right things and in all the right spiritual communities. Only if you are fully rested in your perfect wholeness and without personal bias are you truly self-empowered.
We tend to view a self-empowered person as one who is manifesting everything they want and living in alignment with their personal dreams. What this tends to look like is having an aligned job, standing up for all the right causes, having a healthy body, having seamless relational dynamics, and having all of your desires (physical and nonphysical) met. Many, many strive for this, and while it is a step on the developmental ladder, it is not full self-empowerment. Full self-empowered living is not about having the perfect spiritual appearance of life, its about knowing that you are complete perfection no matter what.
Being fully self-empowered paradoxically has very little to do with you at the personality-physical expression level at all, even though this is what we tend to associate it with. To be truly self-empowered is to recognize that your personal preferences, desires and life, while relatively important for this moment in space-time, have very little ultimate importance. This may sting a little at first thought as you might want to hold onto your personal agendas, significance and righteousness. Feelings of confusion, aimlessness or directionlessness that are along the lines of “well if I’m not that, or this thing I care about isn’t important, than what/who am I” may also arise. This is not the ultimate goal however as we let go of the limited perspective of self with limited power, which is often all we’ve ever known up to this point, we enter a mysterious emptiness that is frequently uncomfortable and disturbing to the personality mind that likes to always be in the know.
Many are suffering because they are placing too much attention and giving too much significance to their small selves. In my opinion this is actually an epidemic in personal growth and spiritual communities. Yes we want practices and skills to dismantle the beliefs that keep us separate and keep us out of our true glory as God, yet frequently we don’t realize that this means that ultimately we have to let go of this idea that we have of a separate, disconnected and worthless self all together. Its funny that we often don’t realize this end goal if you will to personal growth work. That we must divorce or break up with our thoughts/beliefs that insist on our lack of complete perfection and goodness. To not do so and to continue to insist on your worthlessness, is actually a selfishly arrogant act that sucks the energy and life out everything around it and postpones your joy and happiness. To deny, push away, or resist that which you are, is energy depleting for you and all around you. The fastest way to self-empowerment and self-knowing is to stop insisting that you suck.
We are not a separate entity/person no matter how much appearances seem that way. There is no such thing. We could not be disconnected from God if we tried. We are one, we are God, no division, no separation. To be self-empowered means to love self and know self as Love. There is no higher commitment than to be fully devoted to that knowing.
Dr. Amanda Hessel, Chiropractor, Network Spinal Analysis & Somato-Respiratory Integration, Boulder, Colorado